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"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Monday, January 24, 2011

my life would suck without you

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Thursday, December 30, 2010

back

frankly has been busy with stuff that i did not update here..
firstly lappy lost! thanks to my bro! grrrr.. im pissed off with him.. secondly im back with yaya n janice..(sounds like a threesome date) but apparently my bestfriend janice have been hiatus-ing for no particular reason.haish miss her

haisshh.. gosh too much things had happen.. 2010 wasnt really nice to me but alhamdulilah i've made it to e end insyallah and now by saying bismillah im welcoming myself to 2011 year insyallah 2011 will b better then 2010

but in 2010 i got one baby brother and two nephew
rafeez (bro) fauzyan shah fawzan iq shawn

oooo yeah im attach..hehe i found my Mr hero.. i hope he is the one.. he is nice.. loving.. always there for me.. i can see he love me more than i love him.. he is the family type.. insyallah we will last long..

hmm thats all for today will update again

signing off

ikarelle

Labels: back

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Thursday, December 30, 2010

hallloeeeewwwww...

heyyy.. today i had a hectic yet fun.. hahha.. kay meet fina at orchard den we did window shopping wait till one for uma to come.. aftr uma came we go for fina's interview.. then we head down to bugis bk..there we meet boboy.. k so we order our food.. n eat while eating we crack alot of jokes about ppl pronunciation.. its like so bad la.. then the music were getting to loud n boboy was pissed of..ok basically i was being so bitch that i did this boboy fon was a normal non camera fon n iwas like eh come luhh lets take pic using boi's fon.. he pissed off.. k so we were at bk for almost an hour or more n e bk staff pass us feedback form..its totally hilarious.. ok den text my darlingsss ask if wanna meet so we decided to go watch karthik calling karthik ( italkaboutitlater) k den while waiting for darlingss..me,uma,boi n fina walk arnd at bugis st.. den uma bought earring.. so while me n boi waiting for her i was on e fon with darling.. so someone touch my hand.. n my eyes grow bigger i was like HI!!! den she talk to me.. i tell her i wanna talk to you.. hang up e fon w darling n i hug her.. its toh man xin..gosh i miss her like hell can!! i hug her tightly..she was like i miss u.. den we talk i telll her abt my problem all..we didnt expect to bump at there.. actually i bump into quite few ppl today.. ok so tok to david..was telling him that i prefer him with hair.. haha.. ok then she left.. boi say this to me 'tak baik sei' u make e bf wait.. i was like i steal her for awhile n he can have her all his life.. hahha.. ok so aftr that me n uma left i meet darlingss then we walk to jade then bought tickets.. den bought some ice-cream (ps:the ice cream at jade expensive sia n its damn small) so we bought it other place.. we had granny's fav,orea cheesecake and vannila.. den wen in the theatre..
ok here comes karthik calling karthik..
its abt a schizo person and his life.. the movie is good so the tix is worth it thou.. so aftr movie me n darlingss grab our dinner w my parents.. hahha.. ok so aftr dinner went back home..in the train we were toking and laughing like seriously abt b/o and solar system.. the solar system i feel like slapping him.. but b/o seems to b a nice guy.. haha.. ok while walking back home darlings had a bad stomach ache.. like having diarrhoea..poor baby.. hope darlings got diarrhoea till tmr so darlings no need go sch..hahha.. im bad..hmm den wen i reach hm i got stomach ache..haha.. so i bath n here i am blogging.. ok ok off from here..

a lil notes to say: ♥ ♥ even if the sun refused to shine. . Even if romance ran out of rhyme. .You would still have my heart until the end of time. . You're all I need, my love -_- ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Friday, March 12, 2010

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

omg!!! im back.. sorry for e long hiatus... im just lazy to blog.. uhhh my last post was like last year nov.. and now is like march.. ohhh how much i have leave my poor baby alone.. ok im so gonna blog starting for nw.. hhaha.. hmmm lots of tings had happen like im no longer working at nuh.. im no longer with him!! fuhhh thats was a great one..one burden lesser.. i blardy hell need a job wich give me a good pay.. really a good one.. without money u r nothing seriously.. even ur loves one put u one side if u're jobless.. gosh life is tough thou.. hmmm i miss nuraz.. like seriously n her bday is coming.. speaking of bday on taz bday me,sha,ain n faizah make a suprise bday party for her.. cool ryt..hahha.. ok thou i was in a tight situation but tings goes well.. she was totally happy.. n on sha bday she celebrate at ritz carlton..cool right.. so on her bday i meet her at the house..then we go giant..back at her hse we fry some food..nyam nyam..loike it.. but i hate her cats i made her keep her cats in the room..haha.. ok so me n mira are in talking terms aftr tis incidents happen wich i tink i dont need to reveal it.. but good uhh..

i jus got this awkward feelings.. n o ya.. i can already say this i hate u s***n.. like totally omg.. this happen only aftr i saw tis fellow.. hhahha.. my school mate..wich happen to be my best fren relative..haha.. its been 4 years since i met him back.. he look totally diff.. but i really pity his life having a fooked up family..hahaha..ryt sha?? pity sia.. chey cheyy.. hahha.. a new words that i gonna say wen i meet bestie.. hahhaha... ok this is just a dream.. a dream that might not come in the reality.. but still i hoping that it could be reality.. hahha *wink*
i jus bought this cooler pad for my lappy..its really awesome.. it helps me alot really alot.. now i have no worries playing my sims 3..
hmm ok cheyy wanna go..
haha.. update in 1day later..hahah

cheyy signing off

Labels: its just cheyy

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

its ending..

it pretty confused.. i really dunno if u r sincere.. u sound sincer but u dont act like one..how am i to believe u.. i love u deeply.. tis tym u didnt hurts me but ur way..to u n ppl its not hurting but to me.. im totally confused.. i really love u.. i dunno y isit hard for me to forget u.. i really dunno wat so speacial bout u.. i try to forget u previously but i jus cant..looking at ur pic making me miss u more n love u more..i try not to view ur profile,text or call u but i cant control myself.. i miss e old u.. i wan the old u.. e old u makes me love u more.. but the new u makes me confused.. it hurts me alot seeing u move on easily while me.. im crying over u..wen i wanna b alone n makes some decision u suddenly appear n was so nice to me like as if u read my mind n u make me change my mind.. i really dont understand..
argh!! y i jus cant move on..
u
just
a
sweet
talk
fcuker!!

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, November 08, 2009

hate tis...

im super pissed off..disappointing n everything.. tis is not new in e world it happen btw dad n daughter.. so if its uncles it not something surprise but y mus it happen to bbygal? y? everyone respect u..look upon u.. see u as a nice person.. bbygal respect u soo much.. treat u like e own dad.. but u end up destroy her pride n her strongness.. u bloody dog!!! i was shivering,speechless wen bbygal tell me abt it.. i wanted to cry w her but i jus cant.. my dear gal who is strong has became weak.. n all bcos of that animal!! y? y u took advantage on her plus she taking major exam now..y? wat if other noe abt it? u're dead.. arggghhh!!! dear bbygal i always love u.. and will always b there for u.. doesnt mean i scold u i hate u.. i love u.. i jus want u to learn from mistake.. i was dissapointed that u didnt tell me.. i've never shed tears dis much wen i was in prob.. i love u gal

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Saturday, October 03, 2009

hheeeyy

selamat hari raya!! tis year raya i didnt get collection.. sadd sia.. huhu... took alot pics here n there.. meet cousins.. n the best ting some one promise to come today but he didnt even called me..wth!! daya n me gonna hav e same shift for tis week..heee hope we could b together.. one ting doing nitez w her is good cos she helps us alot.. love it.. if only m also on nites w u.. woah it will b heaven.. oh ya recent nites i did was great.. all the 3 sn's help us alot.. dey sponge w us n really help us alot.. i love it.. hahahahha... thank to toh xuelin for e helping me out alot.. not all sn will do sponging w us.. i swear.. o ya thanks to jo n m for helping their junior too..usually if we do sponging we end arnd 5 but tis time wen the sn help each other we end at 4.15..isnt it great.. hmmmm jus nw was watching the game plan w baby.. wen she ask me y e parents didnt stay together? i jus ignored den she add dey dont love each other animore? i give her a smile den she say this oo same like mama n papa? i was stunt n i was in tear.. she was asking me y i cry.. i jus keep on crying..she hug me n she tell me mummy dont cry.. it really hurts me.. she's only 4 n she facing all tis..n her parents damn it got fcuking brain.. wanna get married at young age now look who is suffering? she!! u guys bring burden to her.. u got no sense of humor nvr tink of ur daughter.. heartless fuckers!! may god bless my dear baby..

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

lotsa ting to say

oh my i wanted to blog so much but i've been too busy w work n outings.. ok let me update abt work..i may sounds harsh but tis is fact.. having student arnd do help us alot but they are really getting on our nerve.. they really shld buck up la sei..like come on taking blood pressure u stand there like 15min..omg!! wth ryt.. if patient deset then how? somore u r a poly student n the best ting wen patient got fit 3 poly student were standing infront and look..i feel like knocking their head lah..if u not gonna help then walk off from there.. the best part i ask 4 poly year 2 student the purpose of duclex,where pt need to turn they left reason cos they stand on the right.. walau wei.. damn clots..hands on n prac are totally weak.how u gonna go year 3.. i told bbygal abt this cos she b joining nursing next yr i told her to really study on her theory n practical at least wen u out for prac ppl wont condemn u.. i was totally pissed off w those student.. really sucking my blood.plus im fasting it really a challenge la.. n thanks to eeza having her really ease my workloads but she oso feel stress w her peers..

today is the 16th ramadhan alhamdulilah i've been fasting since the first day.. i plan to get full.. insyallah.. well me,lakhan,taz,mum n papa nizam will b going jb tis tue.papa nizam will b driving us.. i ask lakhan n she's ok w it. hmmm raya? i dun feel like raya tis year. mayb cos last yr we dun celebrate so kind of lazy to celebrate.hmm tis yr will b celebrating w bbyboy..heeess i miss him very muchh..have not been calling him.he is totally bz w work..i understand.. im bz too..
i miss atuk very2 much.. idk y but i totally miss him.. wenever i call umah dadi they say atuk not in spore.. tis yr i b using baju melayu mcm cool lah g2 kan..hahhah..wth!! next yr totally gonna get baju bengali.hehehheh

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, September 06, 2009

fate that brings us together and fate also dats destroy us

i dun feel like updating tis blog.. reason im busy w work n blogger seems to b spoilt.. hmmm i tink im getting tonsils back..its freaking pain..i had sore throats n all those side effects..i hate tis la.. working life--- i jus done cpr like on my nights..i really hate shifts.. i can feel the tiredness,fatigues,no time for my pleasure..argg i dunno luhh.kind of a shit la.. anw thats life i have to redha..
fasting month like in a day time.. i dun feel like raya.. jus got not enuf for everyting..imused to like every year buy all new tings..but tis year i was telling myself i gas im using last yr shirt.. i duno la..n plus mum was asking me to give my small cousin cash.. i dun find the need to dat..i tok to dad n my darlz aunty they even say no need..gosh..money is like water..today pay day today gone..even without buying anyting for yoour own.. goshh.. i jus got no mood to raya
hmmm read fazurah blog..its a sad ting that she broke up.. she broke up august same like me..august seems to b sway but its my bday months.. to fazurah i understand how u feel esp if the r'ship like a year pluss or soo.. its hurting to end a loving r'ship..dont care who at fault still the pain is there unless if the person got no heart la.. hmmmm saying abt r'ship tis is for u.

fate that brings us together and fate also dats destroy us..this r'ship is so meaningful thou its last for 4 years.the memories are still fresh in my mind.everyday i been waiting fer u.yearning to at least to listen to ur voice per day..i feel that my world is ending. i noe u do miss me..u've gone to far in other r'ship while still with me..how could i take it animore.. for her n an innocent fellow happiness i willing to go off from u..go far away.. jus pls dun contact w me.. how i wish i dunno u.. jus go.. if one day we bump jus ignore me..or we can jus b a new fresh fren not toking abt the past.. tear rolling down tinking abt it..

now i hate updating n tis is the reasonn...

Labels: fate that brings us together and fate also dats destroy us

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Thursday, August 20, 2009

H1N1!!!!!!!!!

oh my!! blarddy hell need to use mask for a week..hate it sia..latest outbreak 41,7,wei ling,romille n wenjuan is a h1n1 detected lor.gosh..i jus pity them.i gas every staff need to do the h1n1 swab.but i heard from wl is pain lor..hisshhh..im scared lei..cases r increasing..its not fair if i were to go home n spread to others..gosh..its like gg bonkers day by day..totally hate it.. people must really tc of themself.do proper hand hygiene.see doc if got body ache,fever or cough..n use mask if u got cough or flu..stop SPREADING H1N1..its spreading very fast n yet WHO is still yellow code..god damn it nvr do niting.wen the first outbreak quickly put orange.now wen got alot till yelow..pfft...update largh!!
pls pls pls pls pls pls people do something! stop h1n1!
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fhariz: sorry i been privatised my blog cos that time i go do the template n the ting bcome retards.so ya..nw better..i miss u man dude..

i got a cannery bird at home.. n ytd me n mum clean our new house.alot of ting need to be done..
no more updates..hehehes

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Friday, July 03, 2009

sabri sabri sabri

read sabri blog..he was saying abt resignation n all..hmmm chat w him and all.i understand how it feel.wen ur head is not helping u or giving u support n only give like a sudden shot of gun. but in money matter n if he gonna quit now firstly its not easy to get a job in a short time as he is goin ns.so i was giving an idea of y not he tolerate it n wait a few months till the month that near to his ns day.so atleast he stillgot saving as ns pay u wont n cant survive.at least if he save now during his ns he got cash.anw boyfiee watvever it is i dont care we still have must keep in touch

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Saturday, June 20, 2009

fart up! lols

hmmmm ytd was down w fever.. 37.8..hahxx i hate it sia..den me dear go to c doctor lam wee min..e doctor who have been w us for like my pathetic 20 years..hahah..ok so wen i come the clerk was like woah so long u nve come i dunt have ur card le.hahah..ok ok see dr lam wee min den me,dear n saira tot of going to cgh visit dear fren sekali dc already so we wanna pray zohor so we headed to moulana md ali mosque.so aftr prayer we tot of hearing the asar prayer. so we go eat at LJS cos i wanna eat medcine den we call home gotta noe mami yah already at our house area.so we eat quickly den go back home then zaf sms dear ask to wait for her so we wait.ok thou she's late still she bring water for me..thanks baby..ok den me,zaf n dear were like talking n talking all conflicts tingy.hahha.n i make a confession at zaf i had nvr trust her untill ytd.ok sorry cousin..hmmm she ask me to sleepover her house.i say maybe tonite or sat i come.so ytd while dad n bro send me to redhill i was asking dad if i could sleepover her house as i already noe the ans it was a no. not like those usual strict no. but it was nicer like those like no la dun for wat.hahha.cute thou.ok then i call dear telling abt dad response so dear was like understanding and all.so i tell dear i shall ask mum n dad again. hmm for now dear still sleeping so as to zaf n eda..all of us got our korea name dear name is hyun aeo seo,zaf is mi hi kim,eda's jae kim n mine is mi kyun cha..haha.cool ar.so me,dear,zaf n eda wanna do this charm tingy.its a memory for us..haha sounds cute..

*latest news NUH has h1n1 case at ward 62

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Friday, June 19, 2009

wohhooooo..firstly selamat pengantin baru to my dearest sister n bro..sorry bro didnt got the chance to take ur pic w sis in law..hmmmmm at last kak intan married.lol.. hmmm not gonna upload many pics as im damn lazy..lol

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, June 14, 2009

i have not been updating..on the 10 was my sd n i celebrate adik bday..the next day brought him to MB..he really had funn..apart from that n today at work rizam was abit piss off abt y cant sn ans? if ppl like farhana,azi,xuelin,cris,jo,maliza achao,suzanne.raizel n some others will at least help out.i dunno la.during a few weeks w sister rahima i jus prefer her to b the sister.or mayb they quickly upgrade jaslyn or charlyn.i find the 3 of them are doing work n they motivate their juniors as in all of the sn n an.as working collegue we shld talk abt each other back,we shld help each other,not showing faces,work happily.we r working we are meeting each other everyday how shall i put it ermmm we r like a family.a family has one heart n we shld b or have that one heart to work n achieve our ward together.i dunno la.

i have been eating this vitamin which i think really help me on my health.actually if ppl with more sickness can make it y me a small or jus a dot sickness cant make it la kan..i jus have n force myself to move on.no more cries big girl thats wat darling cousin will always advice.im vulnerable n i admit it

today i feel so down my feeling are jus too confused of what im supposed to b doing n all.i have no one or shall i say im like on my two feets try to fit a perfect size shoe.im going bonkers.i jus feel too tired its hard for me to walk w this shoe.ever since nani death im jus cant move on.its hard i may smile n laugh but only god noes how hard it is im sorry i promise to my darling cousin tt i wont cry n move on it jus that i cant.everytime i go tamp i try not to go nani hse cos every moment n every step it jus remind me of her,her scolding,her laughing n her nagging n oso her stories she will tell abt village n she always say abt my dry lips den wen i cook n gave her she will always b like cannot b u cooking it mus b mama.o my but atleast i ask her for forgiveness wen she is in icu n i saw her very last tears wen i say thatn plus im scared now wat if allah take anthr of my love one.i jus cant move on.so cousins wen i say i bz or tired it was jus an excuse i jus cant bring myself der.if i can go to nurul's or umar's place y cant i go ther its jus that i cant bring my unsize shoes there.it takes time.

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Saturday, June 13, 2009

she's gone

yesterday was like slacking at work place arnd 1430 n my eyes started to twitch..i jus ignore lor.den while charging dear keep on calling me i ignore the call.. the me n wai decided to sit in the staff room..den i saw dear msg me to call a.s.a.p.. in my heart dis fellow ask to call a.s.a.p as if some one pass away..n the truth is ya..at 1445 nani esah pass away..thou we were separated 10 years ago as she was send to peaceheaven.but still i rmbr that she dote on those grandchildren from the eldest till mumtaz den she was away..from work i ask ate charlyn for leaving early n she gave me ph for today..thanks alot ate..den i rush back hm change n den rush to tamp..reach there the body is not back.so ya sit n chat w cousin..the body came late cos we need to verify alot of ting cos nani esah is not spore pr she is china actually..so ya..i can see d diff wen dadi n nani pass away n hers.mayb not many noe her..gosh me n dear actually jus plan to visit her like next week saturday.n this happen..wen mami yah n kala dah reach home iqbal was saying last year nani today nani esah who's next at that time i was stunt..the person in my head is atuk..i have to admit this den its hard for me to accept dadi's death slowly i grow up n use to it.den till now i still cant accept nani death n today nani esah..if he goin to go i dun wish that but if that happen i go bonkers for sure..i be wailing.i jus got nothing to say..i noe one day everyone have to go.but i jus cant let him go.not now at least aftr he can see another of his great grandchild..o allah pls... dun take them away now..i beg u..n the way akhbar say out everything really suave me

Labels: wateva we go thru in our daily life is jus an a challenges. stay strong to face it.in the name of allah we can make it

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

heyyysss

i have not been updating..lazy liao...tired w work.home issue n some trip..hmmm..me n cuzin got some wish list to be achieve...heees n must really do it..hmm did i like update that i was on night? hmmm for god sake i n man xin dun like nights..nights is tiring la..but quite fun..hmmm lets hypocrite's...i jus dun understand ppl..really tjeytense to be nice to u.talking to u nicely n all n behind u they likr talking damn lots bout u la sia..i hate it sei..i mean like be go damn it mature la..it will never end if u were to keep on talking abt ppl..n u can even talk about ur own bestie..n wen u realise they noe abt it u try to talk nicely to the culprit..get a life la.how cheap u r..n by hating ppl who got nothing against u..like? omg..i jus hate that type of person..arghh really..y girls cant be like 95% of guys whereby they wont even gossip abt others..really sia..thats y it say girls have much more sin than guys..reason they tends to gossip more..by gossiping u jus taking that fellow sin..damn it..i noe i also got sin where i cant say abt others but ya we can see our money decreasing or increasing in bank..imagine we got sin's bank..i think it go higher..thats u b argh..omg! lol..really sia..thats all i have n wann to say...hmmm cant wait for the next outing w nurul n andy..wohoooooooo....

Labels: sin's bank? there is its just that we cant see -^-

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, May 31, 2009

imm back

heyyyys im back..i jus hiatus like for 3 days.hahas..ntg to blog thou..hmmm i've been sick like few days..suckss man..heess hmmm let me tell u abt this fellow who been making me smile.basically N and me hav been talking on te phone tis few days n N suddenly say everything abt me in jus one shot n he can even tell my fav colour,drinks n ya..i was stunned n was like *jaw open* i called him a bomoh..hahha
im like totally lost.n to extend tt nurul n andy tot he is a stalker.lol.n they tot mabe its one of my x bf game. but nah i noe x bf he is not that cheap to play with this game..hmmmm but N is nice..he is impressive n he jus noe how to put words to say. N IS NOT A SWEET TALKER AND I MEAN IT.. lol..N talk with experience.n he teaches me quite a few thing..arghhhhhhh wanna sleep..bubye

Labels: experience makes us grows up

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, May 10, 2009

everything shall over now

i dreamt abt us being so happy together.in that dream we promise to be happy n will always b together. wen i woke up i hope that the dream come true.later i think back to jus let u go.go far away from me.we shall act as fren n only jus a fren or we act dat we dont even noe each other.
from the bottom of my heart before this ends thanks for always be there for me.thanks for at least once in the relationship u make me smile n trust u.thanks for showing me to face the fact.thanks for telling me wat does love mean.ur mistake tot me that it takes two hands to clap.i know wat it mean.this relationship ends not bcos of 3rd party.
to her im being harsh n putting tings hard for u.now u guys are back together i shall move on.far way.
to u: tc of urself..tc of her n ur junior.dont forget to eat.n ya dis dumb girl who been w u for years will leave now.n ya u asked me b4 if i ever hate u n will i forgive u? n will i miss u? my ans i've never hate u n i always fogive u.n i wont miss u.im sorry if i ever did mistake.o ya pls throw all the item i gave u.dun make her hurts.i hope u guys relationship will grow longer than our past.take care..

to lin yu jun: thanks ya babe! appreciate it we shall meet up soon!

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Thursday, May 07, 2009

한국어 언어에 있는 나의 블로그

계속 생활은 당신이 working.you 당신의 자신의 money.spend를 그것 주의깊게 찾아내야 한인 후에 단단하다 당신의 부모에게 그것을 주십시오. argh 아이쿠. 때때로 우리의 자신의 돈으로 우리는 휴가와 모두 그것에 소비해 경향이 있다, 그러나 돈이 큰 문제점이다, 아이쿠 나에 진짜로 위로 저장해야 한다, 당분간 나의 블로그 전부 쓸 것이다 읽고 싶다 이렇게 알아낸다 그것을 너자신, 악 저, 그러나 진짜로 im, 배우, 장소 및 지금 언어 조차 의 웃음 밖으로 제비 보인다 한국으로 한국 언어 haha 의 누구이건으로.I는 이슬람교로 한국사람에게 결혼을, 그 전심으로 개조해야 한다 생각했다 조차 또는 그는 그 자신 이슬람교이고, 신 위함을 위해 체재할 것이다 싱가포르 와야 한다 또는 일단 나가 건너와야 하면 나는 그러나 2 달 건너온다, 그는, 나의 우상이다 김 hyun joong 같이 누군가, 아이쿠 i 완전히 사랑한다 그를 의 lol 부유하다

나는 김 hyun joong sunbae를 사랑한다

Labels: 나는 김 hyun joong sunbae를 사랑한다

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

How do u judge a person

never thot of blogging.but this small ting make me wanna share n add on wat had happen..its not from me it was from hyrul anuar.it something i really agree..

How do u judge a person and to be certain of his/her sincerity, despite the many possibilities that he/she is smart at putting up a front or is naturally genuinely an angel at heart?
Judging someone through his/her looks? So how, the ugly ones are the kindred souls while the goodlooking ones have the evil minds? Or isit the other way round, you get smittened with goodlooks and pleasant personality yet deep inside so cunning and living in a world of hypocripsy, and you despise the not-so good looking ones and think they oughta be banished from the face of earth?
Is it through manipulation of words? To make use of situation and gain sympathy, to smile deep inside feeling victorious over the garner of much support and triumph over the power of being a well quipped and intelligent liar?
To know someone personally, beats knowing through words of mouth, through words written or through the persona put up to cover one's true self.
Knowing a person includes knowing his/her family, life background, friends and how these people around him/her feels about the person, as an individual and as how he/she was ever related to them.
Sometimes you need to feel being appreciated sincerely. Not for the wrong things u've done, never for the wrong intentions in mind.

i have something to add on base on wat recently happen.someone judge a person shortcomings.as that person usually mixed with girls but THAT DOESNT MEAN HE IS A GAY or HALF!!(made that point in ur mind!) isnt it wrong to mingle w girls? among 10 including him he has the most healthier life.n worse still u humiliated him infront of everybody! gosh.if u want to tell him that he is not supposed to b there call him out n say nicely.really im not satisfied.whoever is not happy with this post by all means can tell me in my tag right now everyone who attend that engagement shld noe wat happen n who im reffering to.im jus stating the fact! you guys can badmouth abt this that i n him cant get along n im supporting him.so wat im supposed to do grin n say whoa strike one? HELL NO!!thou me n him(the one got humiliated) has always had misunderstanding n ppl badmouthing us saying that i or he got something against each other n we r trying to make this relationship btw us better apart still he dont deserve this!

Labels: never judge a person by its cover

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

wen things at nani's place goes bored this wat happens

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

i miss raqeef!

wen he was only 6months

he was 4 years old

recent

i didnt plan to blog actually but something happen today.something sweet that touches my heart.something abt this boy. the boy that always makes his sister smile of his jokes his laughter n definely his smiles. i missed him sooo much. since I've started working I've not been meeting him.he is jus too far.usually they say kids hard to remember u if u didn't meet them for a long. i deny that.hhmmphh.so Wat happen actually as usual today got some gathering at nani's place.so yeah n they(my aunties n uncles) will definitely disturb him by criticising me.so he cant accept n call me and complain to me.n ya hahahs.thats so cute of my lil bro.i miss you darlz.i've been yearning to meet u.gosh.hearing ur voice make me drop my tears.i love you raqeef

Labels: a sacrifice tt has been made but was not appreciate---i smile i laugh no one knows deep in tis heart im crying

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, April 19, 2009

boooos im back

heyday's have not been updating.not that I'm busy but I'm just lazy..hahahazzzz..last update was like 2 weeks ago.whoa ting has been happening. n i manage to talk to my hubby.gosh missing hubby so much..hubby misses me 2.i Noe that.hahaha let me make a clarification hubby is not my bf but indeed my bestest friend n its a she..o yea n today is the engagement.im sad :((. as a bestie i shld b happy bt im not.n she getting married on this 30th.im more sad :(:(:(:( ..sob sob sob
i cried on the phone w her.hurhhh it was her decision anw.its sucks la but somehow i hav to accept.aftr i hung up w her the next moment i msg faj.faj oso miss her n wanna talk to her. haixxx.the worse part i can even tell bestie once u reach spore u guys have to **v**c*(faj shld noe wat tis mean) gosh..ruining!!! wat a life.talk to bestie till my ppc low.but bestie i pray for ur health n i wan u to b back asap its been two months n yes exactly 2 months u leave us.im jus goin crazy.o my.apart from hubbybestie prob.ytd this freaking sis of mine younger sis!!! overdose of panadol n i heard ppl say this gosh her sis is a nurse and the sis did that.lim pei kali kong argh!! the feeling is like someone stabbing u from the back.my mistake send her to NUH.idiot sia that moron.reason for taking its bcos of that bastard! yeah bastard i noe u gona read tis n let me tell u i dont give a damn who u r.u anjathi(gangster) ryt ok we see..u bloody liar.n their freaking r'ship is only 5mths.tis gals are only a few months r'ship wanna overdose n got hang over for some pathetic misunderstanding.i dun undrstand sia.then wat abt me who been wit him for years.i hurts more n to the extend he did something worsen i didnt kill myself.come on move on.where her dignity wen that bastard say he dun wan her anymore.haixx so yeah ytd me n kevin stayed up till 2 am with her.gosh.kevin is soo nice to my sis la.idiot nvr open ur eyes.i wanna slap her but i gas i did slap n punch her before wen she go chalet n nvr came back n she skipped her math n level exam.so i shall save my energy now who noes she gona do something worse aftr this.i tink aftr this i wont b me handling i shall pass to the higher authority which my elder sis to handle.let the fire plays arnd w her game. n o ya recently i had a sudden chills im like shivering like hell n i took anarex then i manage to sleep as i was on morg shift the next day i woke as per normal n suddenly some one knock on the door calling my name my sis went to see who as she need spec to see she cant really see who was that so she jus go back to sleep so my mum ask me to open wen i peep at the hole i only saw the person wearing green moving toward the stairs area so in less than a min i open the door n he not there n not even turning back as he can hear the door opening.im curious of who he is.

Labels: wateva we go thru in our daily life is jus an a challenges. stay strong to face it.in "his" name we can make it

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

wat a fcuk day

seriously it a fcuking day.firstly he that shall not be named as im super duper angry with that person promise to send me to work n bloody hell he last min say he cant..fook!! n im like an idiot rushing to work..n i missed the bus tho i run still e fcuking driver jus go like that..bloody hell..ok that fine there.so reach work as usuall will get bread n milo..reach ward go to locker n ARGH!!! i left my uniform at home!!! fook.. really totally blank was abt to breakdown..go to wei ling saying i need her favour.n ask daya opinion.n talk to leila.end up wei ling lend me her uniform..gosh so paisey..wah liaook den after wei ling pass over she gave me her uniform.heee..dennn work as per normal as usuall will have some pissed off thing that will happen(ignore as it past n parcel of a job)hmmmm ok den aftr work i overslept in the bus n the driver was angry.as i walk home the rain pour heavily..yaaaaaa shotsss..i cant curse the rain but jus endure it.. as i walk tears drop..arghh i hate it..(too emotional i admit) but things jus now in a way..arghghhhh itsss hiimmmm n this family thats o my tot..goshhh..went home n rest..tooo tired already.seriously den change blog skin n now updating..haiiixxxx

Labels: wateva we go thru in our daily life is jus an a challenges. stay strong to face it.in "his" we can make it

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Saturday, April 04, 2009

I HATE MAN!!!!!!

surprisingly i was awaken by some issues that happen juss now..after wat had happen i swear i hate mans! i dunno if i could live without it in my future life.but insyallah i will..my aim is to take care of my mother.she's my precious one. i used to dream having kids n all..but im too young to say all this as i dunno wat is going to happen aftr this. i really don noe..but watever it is i dun wan to ting of man.the only thing i noe is work,upgrade n hate them.only surviving for my mother! i dont need man to support me.for those ppl who read this post and is dun like it im sorry but this come from my heart.only me n myself noe wat i am goin thru.i have reason that i can lay out why i hate man. shedding tears for them wont really work thou i still shed. for now i realy need tazzy to hug her tightly to ease off this pain.. ouch!!! y on earth im still crying..yaa shootssss....allah really shows me 1/4 of this life. thanks allah for listening to my prayers n telling me the ans.thanks allah.. thank you soo much.. i miss dadi.wen incident happen jus now i was praying she could coax mama. dadi if only u still arnd. i love n miss u.. atleast show up in my dream.i wanna see u. i miss u. i wanna b strong like u. facing problems w calm. i miss u soo much granny!!

Labels: thanks allah for showing it to me.

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Friday, April 03, 2009

heyyys ya...tmr is like my off day..waitt opps i mean today is my off day..hmm gona meet shasha den go watch movie den to eat..hahah..den at 5 meet up w syanas to ngaji.. hmmm work is fun..especially wen got kaki..hahan its manxin today..lol..really have fun with all our nonsense..n farhana ask me out tis monday to tis slimming tingy..hmmm so goin w mama..i really dunno wat to update..o ya there one more ting left... im free!!! yohoooo!!
hahah..ok stop it thats all..

someone said dis
You are a living legend. You have a welcoming smile that is warmth itself. Your glamor and feminine grace doesn't ever diminish. You have an outgoing quality that makes it entertaining for the people around to be with you. You also have a style of dressing and design that shines with creativity. Keep up that brave courage in you!People like you as soon as they see you! You look sincere and trust worthy!
hehheh thanks ya

i miss nursing life n sharfina!!

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Friday, April 03, 2009

hello again

has not been updating... dont ask me why cos im jus plainly buzy..heeee...hmmmm ok hello to the new skins..hahah..been like doing it like the whole noon..haixxx not really happy with it..lol..ok soo yea i've been playing games with fhariz at viwawa for the past few days...hmmmm buddy seems to be busy..haiiixxx..suppose to meet buddy today but i totally forget.thank god she never waited for me..for today i help mama to cook lol...i cook steamed pomfret fish..lol..mama say its abit sour..nah i dun care.the dish n rice totally finish..n gfor the dessert we had nagasari..(banana something idk) i did that too with the help of mama n baby..lol she really kpo wanna do this n that.. so then aftr all that n eat i play game n chat with zai.gosh he irritating.lol..hmmm WORK has been great..the other day i help out afternoon shift i was on morg but since afternn amalina mc n not enuf staff i help out,,hmmm so yeah i went back at 8..mum was nagging but ignore.she nag is bcos i missed driving class..gosh pathetic..o yeah rceived my full pay..give dad n mum n spend alot..ass.. i should save abit i did..so yeah gona open a saving acct n then ask them to dedct from my pay certain amt..so yeah...goshh tmr outing w nurul was cancel cos i on pm shift.idk y roster was change but nurul was upset.its ok i owe u earl swensens so u get it on my pay day k cousins..oh she's turning a year older on the 1st april..wish her sucess n i love her lots.hmmmm gas i shall go n rest tired man...hmmm so yeahhhh..update soon..oh yeah pastamania now is halal..yippeeeee

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

boriing...

hmmmm today josephine called asking if im well to work.so i check my temp n its 37.9.so i told jo im not coming..hmmm den i cont sleeping.den woke up at 10 get ready n took 31 to cgh..so waited there till dd's operation done..so aftr that hd our lunch.i dont really have appetite so yeh i jus had drink.then took train wanna travel to redhill wen i bump with shaheerah.sat with her chat n chat n ask her blog link.n shoots i told her i patch back w him.she was like WHAT!! everybody seems to b like against it. i dunno y..but ya.i dont noe.maybe it gonna end soon..it seems to be..it better be.lol..i dunno la..im jus confused...so then reach city hall she leave n i stop at tiong meet fai n walk back home. wen i reach home i change then do fai resume.den sis tot of doin roti kirai..so we did.mama cook curry n we do e roti kirai.end up mama did everything.thats normal.lol..so now me blogging n chatting with mr Zai. ass he forever will irritate me..thats for today.wannna rest

ps: only an idiot doesnt noe e different between sister n cousin..ass!

Labels: a footprint that was left with hatred n pain in this small heart.

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Monday, March 23, 2009

after a long time..

Firstly to buddy..congrats to u n zihang.and hope tis relationship will last long..ok so now buddy got bf.i'll b alone.. :(

hehe shall go out soon..next outing to sakura den pub..huhhu.letss partieeeeee.... wonder if buddy px wanna tag along..*pray*or maybe buddy n me can go pulau ubin....zihang is invited.im not tt bad..lol..

ok lets talk abt work..

working with those peeps has been great n ya they really nice,supportive,understanding ppl.i started to like e environment.but i notice something wherever u go u have to be mindful abt wat u do.cos others are watching.b urself be normal.laugh w ppl arn,co-operate cause u will nvr noe ppl backstab u..thats life basically..hmmmm so yea...

now come to him..

between the both of us end like 2days ago.it really hurts me alot wen u did e same ting again.i told u to choose properly.tink abt it.i nvr force u to move on w me if u n i are not happy.u wanna sae abt we been together for long ok its accepted.but its ur decision,it ur fault,yes i did mistake also but wat u did to me really hurts me. i never even say a single ting wen i took care of her.jus tell me the truth.where ever u wan to go or with whom i dont care cos i noe the both of u will definitely patch again for the gal.i dindnt blame u tis time but y u have to lie.i told u that i can accept to any changes im prepared for it.but u make me hate u by ur lies.gosh!! i dont want to contact back with u.thanks alot for leaving a footprint that causes hatred and pain in my heart..

i really gonna move on..

Labels: a footprint that was left with hatred n pain in this small heart.

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, March 22, 2009

had a long day

today is baby daniya bday..hmm happy bday lil baby.. so ytdwe had a small gathering.. at changi.. we had pit.. we roasted chicken,seafoods,fish,hmmm so on n ya.. hmmm really had fun. i was called e naughty gal..as mama ask me to sleep as today im working mawning shift..so i was like giving excuses..we chat *gossips*.. ghost story telling..fishing haha *random* im soo not in that..i really wanna c e "ting".. ytd bubu and auntie julie saw it like alot of time..haixx really suxx to see.. haha.. well den chat n all den at 2.30 i went in the tent to sleep w my niece,dotty.. they really had a gud sleep. and i swear they make my body ache with all e kicking and to e extend of goin on top og my body.haha.. so sleep den due to noise pollution. i cant really sleep well.woke at 5.. get ready by 5.30 we leave..reach home arnd 6am.bath n get ready. den off to work.. working w wati was fun..only at e end part wen leila did checklist w me, i was really knocking off.gosh.. i went home straight w my uniform.. really tired.reach home eat n den sleep. i was totally fatigue la sei.. den woke up at 9.30.. eat bread den now blogging..n i swear my body aching.
ever since i bz i dun really have e time to bother abt him. i hope tis feeling faded.but ytd during e pit,e environment juz remind me of him.thank god i have them to support.argh shall not talk abt tis..

Labels: experience makes us grows up

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Monday, March 16, 2009

i never feel tis way before shedding the tears for a fren now i realise that u r my bestie. i noe tis is going to happen one day but if i Noe u goin thru tis i wont argue with u.i will meet u and hug u tight before u leave at least i can meet u before u go.but i didnt expect it to happen.i cant blame ur parents its their decision they have all rights. when u reach India u text me didnt noe that will be the last msg before u r someones property.. spoke to u before u leave din tot that will be e last time till u be back which i dont noe wen. i just miss you sharfina! i regret i should have listen to u den to other people feelings, should have meet u. i regret sei fina.. after talking to ur dad i jus feel tremor n breakdown.i really dont noe wat to do now.pls show me the way Allah. i jus miss u bitch!! will i have the chance talking and meeting u? i hope ur dad wont break his promise.if i could go india now i will!!

i miss sharfina..

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Tuesday, March 10, 2009