her life storeyy

ok the plan for today. . oooopsy i mean 29.12.08 was supposed to be 1st me n kakak consult doc den get john a shirt den back home get ready n off to escape. . our timing is that we target to be at escape latest by 1pm. .den get lunch. .play games den at 8 grab dinner n go back home. . but it ended up to b. . me n kakak consult doc den get john a shirt and breakfast den back home,mama clean the house everyone get ready then we headed to jln sultan kakak wanna eat nasi padang.she miss it soo much den arnd 2 we headed to escape theme park. . first ting is HAUNTED HOUSE!! ok mama is so freaking scared the best part john is in. . but the bad part is non of the alive ghost scares us. . so ya. . den we go to inverter. .but mama n kakak sat down.. ok since its like only me,daniel n david playing n im the only gal. .they bullied me!!! hmph. . they left me all alone to q n off to play other game for awhile. . "brengset ye jadi org" so i was angry den i sat w kakak n mama. .den mama say abt this metro sale in expo. . so i wanna go n we left the boys to play n we shopping. . ok it really a sale i tell u. . it damn cheap lor. . so i shop for ***. .i ting my *** is like finishing.its definitely not d disposal wan.but its getting fewer.ok anw the *** is nice n cheap. .kakak buy alot n i disturb her saying tt wat in korea they dont sell is it? n she laugh. since i dont really bring my cash.i jus grab 3 first with tube dress. . which cost me only 12 buck altogether. .mama bought pillow.n kakak bought like 6 *** 3 P******. .baby pram. and 2 baby pillow.wich like she spent at only 89. . o ya she also g. . got mama glucosamine which is like 2 for 50 buck. . damn cheap sia. . im soo gonna go again like b4 sunday as its the last day. .david is really looking foward to celebrate new year here. . he say its like at last he got the new year feeling. . o ya after the shopping we go to east coast to grab dinner. . den it treat bowling. . hee. . i had really fun today. . seriously. . i was like begging kakak to come back here for hari raya this year.hopefully by the tym we shifted to new house. . n mama plan we celebrate christmas in korea. .im ok w it. .but i still wann to come back before new year. . hee.. still under planning yeah. . k im soo tired. . got to shoot my head off. . bye2. .

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"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

the day goes like

heyy. . its been a long tym since i update. . hmm kk. . first i wanna sae tt kak erna is in spore. . hehe. . john nicholas first ever overseas trip to SINGAPORE!!! hehe. . if david his first visit is like korea. .so for john is here. . wohhooooo. . ok is like first day at here it was a suprise for mama. . haha. .mama was so happy but she nagg at us. . so the watever. . ok so me n kakak go out to sim lim sq,mustafa den bugis. . o yeah taxi are sucks n i mean it. . the erp,the extra charges n pathetic the town charges. . my goodness we almost broke mann.ok den actually wanna go sim lim tower but mama called saying tt john crying. . so me n kakak go back.we reach home few min bro n david reach. . den my 3rd sis n baby also reach like 5min later. . ok so for today its like a family re-union.gosh too many ppl n the worse part its at nek-yang(great granny) house.tok din got two big fat cat. . n d cat scared of ppl but the more dey scared the much more i feel tensed. nyehehe. .ok so den nenek busu gimme 10 buck n nenek gimme 50. . gosh. . wohoo. . john only got 10 each from them.yay. . so relax under neath blk w atok n the gang. . mimin dad keep hugging me. .n disturbing me. . uncle yusri come n hug me. . thou i noe abt his condition i act like as if i dont know. . ya watever its his probs.. so den he met kakak. . talk n all. . everyone ask abt my 3rd sis she left early.cos her husband side got wedd. . so ya. .ok den after everyone go,left the rest of them. . n ya then my future uncle he look exactly like ari wibowo n he damn rich!! nyehehe. . ok ika watever. . ok so tmr my plan will be like goin escape. . wohoooooooooooooooo!!! ok n ya forget this. . faj text me abt cohort chalet. . ermm but kakak is here so i doubt so im goin. . sorry babe. .o ya im soo gonna move maybe to bedok next year. . gonna miss ppl here den. .i hope by the time he is out den we move pls allah. . let him go out first den we moved.i really mish him. .o allah. . pray hard ika!!!

i miss my bby ♥ eu syg!! im waiting!! 1 year n 3mths gosh!! pls dear no more nonsense aftr this. . please!!!

ok till den bubyeee

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"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, December 28, 2008

ytd while at east point there's tom n jerry show. . hehehe how i wish raqeef was der. . confirm he happy like hell. . so ya. . after the show n after lunch at kfc i was damn full. . me n taz was damn freaking full till we wanna vomit n we feel damn giddy..so we plan to go to vivo. .but sumhow we plan to go today wich den mami yah didn give us permission to go out. .so we sunplaza park.. n took pix. . so while at there fhir wanna change hp. . i dunno wat so great abt my scrap hp. . at first i dun wann cos i scared mami yah scold..but he keep saying tt she wont ok so we change. .but end up mami yah scold him. . so since today really got darn nuting to do i follow mama go pasar. den since ma not feelng well she ask me to cook!!! the dishes for today will be soup macroni. .so i cut all those stuff since im abit dumb so everyting fall off. . damn actually dowann mama to noe sekali she come out. . haha. .she end uo help me. . hehe. . so now me here blogging.. o ya. . baby is so cute playing fake psp with sound n all. . adorable. . love her mann

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"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Sunday, December 21, 2008

there she goes again lyrics

From the chapel to the parking lot
All the Scriptures that she had forgot
Memories so overwrought
De murder Adieu for tonight
Never been such a delight
To make a human sacrifice Can meet in the alleyway You've got this occupation
And obligations to
Be sure that he suffers
Be sure that he fights
Say goodnight
Say goodnight (say goodnight)
She feels no contrite
[Chorus:]This wont be the first to last, its just about time
When it goes by so fast When dealing with the perfect crime
Wait by the balery led over to a charade
Wait for the cue
And strike with dismay
The night is young at the cabaret She makes sure her hair wont shake
To hesitate its no mistake
Shhh (ahh)
But pressure adds as her hands sweat
Its all procedure its a set He could see her silhouette Don't run tonight
It's out of his hands tonight
Her fingers on the trigger what a pleasant surprise
The look in her eyes
The demonic look in her eyes
Tell the whole story it's one simple line(one simple line)
The job was a sight
[Chorus:]This wont be first to last its just about time
When it goes by so fast
When dealing with the perfect crime
Wait by the balery led over to charade
Wait for the cue
And strike with dismay
There she goes again (There she goes agian)
There she goes again (There she goes agian)
There she goes again (gan gan gan)
Without a trace the scene was left with hints of your grace
And don't repent, the past has foregone time to move on (move on)
Till you're next in tombs to rot

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Friday, December 19, 2008

jus because of a pathetic letter

this blog will be say in malay. . takot ada org tak sepatutnye baca,terbaca. . ehh tolong lah. kau nak gaduh dgn aku psl surat? jgn nak merepek ok. . tu surat walaupun dari siapa kau tak perlu nak tau. . tu aku punya. . yg kau nak baca lepas tu nak cemburu n all kau buang masa kau. . n now sbb kan surat tu kita bergaduh? eyy org yg kasi surat tu kalau tau ketawa kan kau.n malah dia akan kasi lagy bnyk surat. . n lepas tu kau nak buang muka dgn aku? eh fuck largh. . kau perangai masi kebudak budakan. . kau nak ckp aku tak spent time dgn kau. . apa kau balik keje kita tak spent tym tgt. . yy sedangkan bdk yg umur lagi kecik daripada kau blh berpikir.kau apa otak mati ke apa? seriously la ehk kalau ni berterusan hubungan ni takkan lama. . kata jek banyak bercampuran tapi otak masi budak budak. . F lah. . jantan bodoh.dicsipline aku is hak aku jgn berani sentuh. . even msg hp aku jgn nak baca.kau ckp lah dulu dgn si babi tu boleh.k watever cos aku masi blum boleh menerima kau. kau buat aku benci dgn diri kau. .cukup aku cuba untuk terima kau after a real sudden of suprise. . tapi apa jadi smalam takkan aku lupa dan it take time untuk aku maafkan kau. .

i miss my raqeef. . if only he is here. . haixx. . 9 more days to go n he will be back. .

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"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Friday, December 19, 2008

at last my op is done

ok gosh its dmn freaking pain. . it really affect me talking n eating. . n plus jus now got abit of phlegm n discomfort so i try throwing out the phlegm n gas wat its bleed abit. . daddy came over to meet me. . he bought 1 tub of ice cream. . i can only feed in ice cream. . i called mdm qian straight after discharge. . she said since i got 15 days hospitalisation leave i don't need to replace. . pity charlynne need to replace alone. .. ok ok wen the en send me n one more boy to operation theatre was fine. . but once i reach its like so hectic. dey really rush tings. . put in the cannula n put on anaethesia then off i dunno wat happen. . not so cool sia. . n i wonder if they stitch it or clayed it? .hmm o ya now i understand the pain. .the feeling when the iv cannula is in ur hand. . how it is if the iv hartman or watever solutin is finish n the drip is not clamp. . hmm i feel it. . n wats e effect after anaethesia. .o n yea make sure after op try to pass urine. . gosh my stomach was distended mann. . haixx. . i really feel giddy untill now.. actually dr loke ask me if i wan to stay for another day but i dun want. . pretty bored mann. . hmm k lah. . wanna take medicine n off to sleep. .

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"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Friday, December 12, 2008

hmmm few minutes to go n i will Nil by mouth. . hehahas. abit weird. . cos usually i say to pt now its like me goin tru it. . hmm ok finally my operation n ya finally my course ended. . so ya us now got the pre-graduation briefing. . haha. . quite happy n sad. . hmm need t sign up at SNB. . need to pay $70. .hmm. . tues got interview with ttsh. . at last gonna get a job. . ok ok. . i dunno wat to write. . but seriously im nervous for tmr. .gosh wonder how the pain gonna be. . will i stay there long? aww. .

ooohhh so dumb of me. . im like chatting with andy i n forget his lil bro name. . soo sorry. . im just nervous. . hehe. . ok worse.. i say the wrong name for his lil sis. . ika!!! wats goin on. . k i wann drink ater before its strike 12. . bye bye. . update wen i discharge. . pray hard

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"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Thursday, December 11, 2008

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

i really cant believe this!! my posting is like goona end!! my 2 years course end!! at last. .niwaes kk posting was fun. . hmm some stupid tings had happened. . thank god im like the patience type. . if not tts it mann!!

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Happy birthday to my dearest fajrina. .

hope u success always!!

n be happy with ur loves one!!

keep smiling babe :))

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Monday, December 08, 2008

5th DECEMBER

happy birthday nafisah!! love eu babe!!

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Saturday, December 06, 2008

hmm watever happened on friday was really an experienced. . it really freak me out. .but thnk god every ting is ok. . we really drive der damn fast lah. . n ya my hand damn pain carry baby.not only dos in kk but my dear baby. gosh. . now my dear baby raqeef already left to thailand with my dad n muumy. . missing him. . he will back only by 28.haish. . hmm anw. . jus came back n abit tired. . hmm i really mis him now at this very moment. . dunno y but seriously only him in my mind now. . d trip to m'sia really open my eyes how precious a person is. n life is short at any point of time the person u love will leave u. seriously im not really readi to accept the fact if sum1 in the family gonna leave me. i still cant get over dadi.if he gona go now hu will b der fer me? he is everyting to me.our family has been brought up to love each other deeply.now i really scared if he gonna leave us. . i really wanna do special ting so tt i can keep in memories. i tot of doing it to dadi n nani but dey leave me already.i dun wan it to happen to him. dadi is the most person i need before,she my mum,granny,sister,fren n lover. ever since she leave everyting change. . i am really not ready for the next on. . oh 'allah' answer to my prayers. pls at least save tis tears for another time. tis year i really cried alot. nani's n adik's death really affect me.tis morg while sitting down.he didnt really tok much only ask if i had eaten n tts all he keptquiet most of the tym suddenly he ask me will he got a chance to come for my marriage? will he see my children? oh it really broke my heart into pieces. dadi ever ask me this befoe she leave.is this a sign or is he jus asking for his own info? at this moment how i wish he is jus by my side. with me. . how i wish n wants!! appreciate ur love want ppl. .

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Saturday, December 06, 2008

actually i have no intention to blog today. . but since something had happen i decide to blog. . lets start w early mrg. . saw jovian in the bus walk up to wards with him n nobody had reach so i wen 7.11. . den during shift tym. . suddenly dis pt called. . she's had pain. . she really cant take it. . so some one call ssn. . n ssn say ok we send her to labour soon. . den in the cubicle left me,gaya n maria. . we saw the head quickly maria called he ssn.so its like suddenly me n gaya saw the baby out. both of our heart dropped out dead. if anything gonna happen we will so gonna get it. . so ya den all i can say to the pt relax. . everyting goonna be ok. . so ssn n doc came. . they quickly wipe the baby n we rush push the cradle fer the baby. . settle the baby n all. . then get to the mommy. . take out the placenta n all . . then ya its like abit chaotic. . so after everything done suddenly fire alarm. . me n juliana was like wat a first remembrance day. . so it turns out to b false alarm . . hmmm seriously my mind keep on flashing abt the traedy. . n the braviest part the mommy look so fresh. . she's not like some one who's like jus gave birth. . its really a memoriable day. . haa. .

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."

Monday, December 01, 2008