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2011-01-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

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my life would suck without you

2010-12-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

back

2010-12-30T03:00:00.006+08:00

frankly has been busy with stuff that i did not update here..
firstly lappy lost! thanks to my bro! grrrr.. im pissed off with him.. secondly im back with yaya n janice..(sounds like a threesome date) but apparently my bestfriend janice have been hiatus-ing for no particular reason.haish miss her

haisshh.. gosh too much things had happen.. 2010 wasnt really nice to me but alhamdulilah i've made it to e end insyallah and now by saying bismillah im welcoming myself to 2011 year insyallah 2011 will b better then 2010

but in 2010 i got one baby brother and two nephew
rafeez (bro) fauzyan shah fawzan iq shawn

oooo yeah im attach..hehe i found my Mr hero.. i hope he is the one.. he is nice.. loving.. always there for me.. i can see he love me more than i love him.. he is the family type.. insyallah we will last long..

hmm thats all for today will update again

signing off

ikarelle

hallloeeeewwwww...

2010-03-12T00:23:00.002+08:00

heyyy.. today i had a hectic yet fun.. hahha.. kay meet fina at orchard den we did window shopping wait till one for uma to come.. aftr uma came we go for fina's interview.. then we head down to bugis bk..there we meet boboy.. k so we order our food.. n eat while eating we crack alot of jokes about ppl pronunciation.. its like so bad la.. then the music were getting to loud n boboy was pissed of..ok basically i was being so bitch that i did this boboy fon was a normal non camera fon n iwas like eh come luhh lets take pic using boi's fon.. he pissed off.. k so we were at bk for almost an hour or more n e bk staff pass us feedback form..its totally hilarious.. ok den text my darlingsss ask if wanna meet so we decided to go watch karthik calling karthik ( italkaboutitlater) k den while waiting for darlingss..me,uma,boi n fina walk arnd at bugis st.. den uma bought earring.. so while me n boi waiting for her i was on e fon with darling.. so someone touch my hand.. n my eyes grow bigger i was like HI!!! den she talk to me.. i tell her i wanna talk to you.. hang up e fon w darling n i hug her.. its toh man xin..gosh i miss her like hell can!! i hug her tightly..she was like i miss u.. den we talk i telll her abt my problem all..we didnt expect to bump at there.. actually i bump into quite few ppl today.. ok so tok to david..was telling him that i prefer him with hair.. haha.. ok then she left.. boi say this to me 'tak baik sei' u make e bf wait.. i was like i steal her for awhile n he can have her all his life.. hahha.. ok so aftr that me n uma left i meet darlingss then we walk to jade then bought tickets.. den bought some ice-cream (ps:the ice cream at jade expensive sia n its damn small) so we bought it other place.. we had granny's fav,orea cheesecake and vannila.. den wen in the theatre..
ok here comes karthik calling karthik..
its abt a schizo person and his life.. the movie is good so the tix is worth it thou.. so aftr movie me n darlingss grab our dinner w my parents.. hahha.. ok so aftr dinner went back home..in the train we were toking and laughing like seriously abt b/o and solar system.. the solar system i feel like slapping him.. but b/o seems to b a nice guy.. haha.. ok while walking back home darlings had a bad stomach ache.. like having diarrhoea..poor baby.. hope darlings got diarrhoea till tmr so darlings no need go sch..hahha.. im bad..hmm den wen i reach hm i got stomach ache..haha.. so i bath n here i am blogging.. ok ok off from here..

a lil notes to say: ♥ ♥ even if the sun refused to shine. . Even if romance ran out of rhyme. .You would still have my heart until the end of time. . You're all I need, my love -_- ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-03-10T16:40:00.002+08:00

2010-03-10T10:51:00.002+08:00

omg!!! im back.. sorry for e long hiatus... im just lazy to blog.. uhhh my last post was like last year nov.. and now is like march.. ohhh how much i have leave my poor baby alone.. ok im so gonna blog starting for nw.. hhaha.. hmmm lots of tings had happen like im no longer working at nuh.. im no longer with him!! fuhhh thats was a great one..one burden lesser.. i blardy hell need a job wich give me a good pay.. really a good one.. without money u r nothing seriously.. even ur loves one put u one side if u're jobless.. gosh life is tough thou.. hmmm i miss nuraz.. like seriously n her bday is coming.. speaking of bday on taz bday me,sha,ain n faizah make a suprise bday party for her.. cool ryt..hahha.. ok thou i was in a tight situation but tings goes well.. she was totally happy.. n on sha bday she celebrate at ritz carlton..cool right.. so on her bday i meet her at the house..then we go giant..back at her hse we fry some food..nyam nyam..loike it.. but i hate her cats i made her keep her cats in the room..haha.. ok so me n mira are in talking terms aftr tis incidents happen wich i tink i dont need to reveal it.. but good uhh..

i jus got this awkward feelings.. n o ya.. i can already say this i hate u s***n.. like totally omg.. this happen only aftr i saw tis fellow.. hhahha.. my school mate..wich happen to be my best fren relative..haha.. its been 4 years since i met him back.. he look totally diff.. but i really pity his life having a fooked up family..hahaha..ryt sha?? pity sia.. chey cheyy.. hahha.. a new words that i gonna say wen i meet bestie.. hahhaha... ok this is just a dream.. a dream that might not come in the reality.. but still i hoping that it could be reality.. hahha *wink*
i jus bought this cooler pad for my lappy..its really awesome.. it helps me alot really alot.. now i have no worries playing my sims 3..
hmm ok cheyy wanna go..
haha.. update in 1day later..hahah

cheyy signing off

its ending..

2009-11-08T00:29:00.002+08:00

it pretty confused.. i really dunno if u r sincere.. u sound sincer but u dont act like one..how am i to believe u.. i love u deeply.. tis tym u didnt hurts me but ur way..to u n ppl its not hurting but to me.. im totally confused.. i really love u.. i dunno y isit hard for me to forget u.. i really dunno wat so speacial bout u.. i try to forget u previously but i jus cant..looking at ur pic making me miss u more n love u more..i try not to view ur profile,text or call u but i cant control myself.. i miss e old u.. i wan the old u.. e old u makes me love u more.. but the new u makes me confused.. it hurts me alot seeing u move on easily while me.. im crying over u..wen i wanna b alone n makes some decision u suddenly appear n was so nice to me like as if u read my mind n u make me change my mind.. i really dont understand..
argh!! y i jus cant move on..
u
just
a
sweet
talk
fcuker!!

hate tis...

2009-10-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

im super pissed off..disappointing n everything.. tis is not new in e world it happen btw dad n daughter.. so if its uncles it not something surprise but y mus it happen to bbygal? y? everyone respect u..look upon u.. see u as a nice person.. bbygal respect u soo much.. treat u like e own dad.. but u end up destroy her pride n her strongness.. u bloody dog!!! i was shivering,speechless wen bbygal tell me abt it.. i wanted to cry w her but i jus cant.. my dear gal who is strong has became weak.. n all bcos of that animal!! y? y u took advantage on her plus she taking major exam now..y? wat if other noe abt it? u're dead.. arggghhh!!! dear bbygal i always love u.. and will always b there for u.. doesnt mean i scold u i hate u.. i love u.. i jus want u to learn from mistake.. i was dissapointed that u didnt tell me.. i've never shed tears dis much wen i was in prob.. i love u gal

hheeeyy

2009-09-22T18:13:00.002+08:00

selamat hari raya!! tis year raya i didnt get collection.. sadd sia.. huhu... took alot pics here n there.. meet cousins.. n the best ting some one promise to come today but he didnt even called me..wth!! daya n me gonna hav e same shift for tis week..heee hope we could b together.. one ting doing nitez w her is good cos she helps us alot.. love it.. if only m also on nites w u.. woah it will b heaven.. oh ya recent nites i did was great.. all the 3 sn's help us alot.. dey sponge w us n really help us alot.. i love it.. hahahahha... thank to toh xuelin for e helping me out alot.. not all sn will do sponging w us.. i swear.. o ya thanks to jo n m for helping their junior too..usually if we do sponging we end arnd 5 but tis time wen the sn help each other we end at 4.15..isnt it great.. hmmmm jus nw was watching the game plan w baby.. wen she ask me y e parents didnt stay together? i jus ignored den she add dey dont love each other animore? i give her a smile den she say this oo same like mama n papa? i was stunt n i was in tear.. she was asking me y i cry.. i jus keep on crying..she hug me n she tell me mummy dont cry.. it really hurts me.. she's only 4 n she facing all tis..n her parents damn it got fcuking brain.. wanna get married at young age now look who is suffering? she!! u guys bring burden to her.. u got no sense of humor nvr tink of ur daughter.. heartless fuckers!! may god bless my dear baby..

lotsa ting to say

2009-09-06T15:18:00.003+08:00

oh my i wanted to blog so much but i've been too busy w work n outings.. ok let me update abt work..i may sounds harsh but tis is fact.. having student arnd do help us alot but they are really getting on our nerve.. they really shld buck up la sei..like come on taking blood pressure u stand there like 15min..omg!! wth ryt.. if patient deset then how? somore u r a poly student n the best ting wen patient got fit 3 poly student were standing infront and look..i feel like knocking their head lah..if u not gonna help then walk off from there.. the best part i ask 4 poly year 2 student the purpose of duclex,where pt need to turn they left reason cos they stand on the right.. walau wei.. damn clots..hands on n prac are totally weak.how u gonna go year 3.. i told bbygal abt this cos she b joining nursing next yr i told her to really study on her theory n practical at least wen u out for prac ppl wont condemn u.. i was totally pissed off w those student.. really sucking my blood.plus im fasting it really a challenge la.. n thanks to eeza having her really ease my workloads but she oso feel stress w her peers..

today is the 16th ramadhan alhamdulilah i've been fasting since the first day.. i plan to get full.. insyallah.. well me,lakhan,taz,mum n papa nizam will b going jb tis tue.papa nizam will b driving us.. i ask lakhan n she's ok w it. hmmm raya? i dun feel like raya tis year. mayb cos last yr we dun celebrate so kind of lazy to celebrate.hmm tis yr will b celebrating w bbyboy..heeess i miss him very muchh..have not been calling him.he is totally bz w work..i understand.. im bz too..
i miss atuk very2 much.. idk y but i totally miss him.. wenever i call umah dadi they say atuk not in spore.. tis yr i b using baju melayu mcm cool lah g2 kan..hahhah..wth!! next yr totally gonna get baju bengali.hehehheh

fate that brings us together and fate also dats destroy us

2009-08-20T23:38:00.001+08:00

i dun feel like updating tis blog.. reason im busy w work n blogger seems to b spoilt.. hmmm i tink im getting tonsils back..its freaking pain..i had sore throats n all those side effects..i hate tis la.. working life--- i jus done cpr like on my nights..i really hate shifts.. i can feel the tiredness,fatigues,no time for my pleasure..argg i dunno luhh.kind of a shit la.. anw thats life i have to redha..
fasting month like in a day time.. i dun feel like raya.. jus got not enuf for everyting..imused to like every year buy all new tings..but tis year i was telling myself i gas im using last yr shirt.. i duno la..n plus mum was asking me to give my small cousin cash.. i dun find the need to dat..i tok to dad n my darlz aunty they even say no need..gosh..money is like water..today pay day today gone..even without buying anyting for yoour own.. goshh.. i jus got no mood to raya
hmmm read fazurah blog..its a sad ting that she broke up.. she broke up august same like me..august seems to b sway but its my bday months.. to fazurah i understand how u feel esp if the r'ship like a year pluss or soo.. its hurting to end a loving r'ship..dont care who at fault still the pain is there unless if the person got no heart la.. hmmmm saying abt r'ship tis is for u.

fate that brings us together and fate also dats destroy us..this r'ship is so meaningful thou its last for 4 years.the memories are still fresh in my mind.everyday i been waiting fer u.yearning to at least to listen to ur voice per day..i feel that my world is ending. i noe u do miss me..u've gone to far in other r'ship while still with me..how could i take it animore.. for her n an innocent fellow happiness i willing to go off from u..go far away.. jus pls dun contact w me.. how i wish i dunno u.. jus go.. if one day we bump jus ignore me..or we can jus b a new fresh fren not toking abt the past.. tear rolling down tinking abt it..

now i hate updating n tis is the reasonn...

H1N1!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-03T17:16:00.002+08:00

oh my!! blarddy hell need to use mask for a week..hate it sia..latest outbreak 41,7,wei ling,romille n wenjuan is a h1n1 detected lor.gosh..i jus pity them.i gas every staff need to do the h1n1 swab.but i heard from wl is pain lor..hisshhh..im scared lei..cases r increasing..its not fair if i were to go home n spread to others..gosh..its like gg bonkers day by day..totally hate it.. people must really tc of themself.do proper hand hygiene.see doc if got body ache,fever or cough..n use mask if u got cough or flu..stop SPREADING H1N1..its spreading very fast n yet WHO is still yellow code..god damn it nvr do niting.wen the first outbreak quickly put orange.now wen got alot till yelow..pfft...update largh!!
pls pls pls pls pls pls people do something! stop h1n1!
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fhariz: sorry i been privatised my blog cos that time i go do the template n the ting bcome retards.so ya..nw better..i miss u man dude..

i got a cannery bird at home.. n ytd me n mum clean our new house.alot of ting need to be done..
no more updates..hehehes

sabri sabri sabri

2009-06-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

read sabri blog..he was saying abt resignation n all..hmmm chat w him and all.i understand how it feel.wen ur head is not helping u or giving u support n only give like a sudden shot of gun. but in money matter n if he gonna quit now firstly its not easy to get a job in a short time as he is goin ns.so i was giving an idea of y not he tolerate it n wait a few months till the month that near to his ns day.so atleast he stillgot saving as ns pay u wont n cant survive.at least if he save now during his ns he got cash.anw boyfiee watvever it is i dont care we still have must keep in touch

fart up! lols

2009-06-19T11:10:00.003+08:00

hmmmm ytd was down w fever.. 37.8..hahxx i hate it sia..den me dear go to c doctor lam wee min..e doctor who have been w us for like my pathetic 20 years..hahah..ok so wen i come the clerk was like woah so long u nve come i dunt have ur card le.hahah..ok ok see dr lam wee min den me,dear n saira tot of going to cgh visit dear fren sekali dc already so we wanna pray zohor so we headed to moulana md ali mosque.so aftr prayer we tot of hearing the asar prayer. so we go eat at LJS cos i wanna eat medcine den we call home gotta noe mami yah already at our house area.so we eat quickly den go back home then zaf sms dear ask to wait for her so we wait.ok thou she's late still she bring water for me..thanks baby..ok den me,zaf n dear were like talking n talking all conflicts tingy.hahha.n i make a confession at zaf i had nvr trust her untill ytd.ok sorry cousin..hmmm she ask me to sleepover her house.i say maybe tonite or sat i come.so ytd while dad n bro send me to redhill i was asking dad if i could sleepover her house as i already noe the ans it was a no. not like those usual strict no. but it was nicer like those like no la dun for wat.hahha.cute thou.ok then i call dear telling abt dad response so dear was like understanding and all.so i tell dear i shall ask mum n dad again. hmm for now dear still sleeping so as to zaf n eda..all of us got our korea name dear name is hyun aeo seo,zaf is mi hi kim,eda's jae kim n mine is mi kyun cha..haha.cool ar.so me,dear,zaf n eda wanna do this charm tingy.its a memory for us..haha sounds cute..

*latest news NUH has h1n1 case at ward 62

2009-06-14T22:15:00.004+08:00

wohhooooo..firstly selamat pengantin baru to my dearest sister n bro..sorry bro didnt got the chance to take ur pic w sis in law..hmmmmm at last kak intan married.lol.. hmmm not gonna upload many pics as im damn lazy..lol

2009-06-13T00:27:00.004+08:00

i have not been updating..on the 10 was my sd n i celebrate adik bday..the next day brought him to MB..he really had funn..apart from that n today at work rizam was abit piss off abt y cant sn ans? if ppl like farhana,azi,xuelin,cris,jo,maliza achao,suzanne.raizel n some others will at least help out.i dunno la.during a few weeks w sister rahima i jus prefer her to b the sister.or mayb they quickly upgrade jaslyn or charlyn.i find the 3 of them are doing work n they motivate their juniors as in all of the sn n an.as working collegue we shld talk abt each other back,we shld help each other,not showing faces,work happily.we r working we are meeting each other everyday how shall i put it ermmm we r like a family.a family has one heart n we shld b or have that one heart to work n achieve our ward together.i dunno la.

i have been eating this vitamin which i think really help me on my health.actually if ppl with more sickness can make it y me a small or jus a dot sickness cant make it la kan..i jus have n force myself to move on.no more cries big girl thats wat darling cousin will always advice.im vulnerable n i admit it

today i feel so down my feeling are jus too confused of what im supposed to b doing n all.i have no one or shall i say im like on my two feets try to fit a perfect size shoe.im going bonkers.i jus feel too tired its hard for me to walk w this shoe.ever since nani death im jus cant move on.its hard i may smile n laugh but only god noes how hard it is im sorry i promise to my darling cousin tt i wont cry n move on it jus that i cant.everytime i go tamp i try not to go nani hse cos every moment n every step it jus remind me of her,her scolding,her laughing n her nagging n oso her stories she will tell abt village n she always say abt my dry lips den wen i cook n gave her she will always b like cannot b u cooking it mus b mama.o my but atleast i ask her for forgiveness wen she is in icu n i saw her very last tears wen i say thatn plus im scared now wat if allah take anthr of my love one.i jus cant move on.so cousins wen i say i bz or tired it was jus an excuse i jus cant bring myself der.if i can go to nurul's or umar's place y cant i go ther its jus that i cant bring my unsize shoes there.it takes time.

she's gone

2009-06-02T20:10:00.003+08:00

yesterday was like slacking at work place arnd 1430 n my eyes started to twitch..i jus ignore lor.den while charging dear keep on calling me i ignore the call.. the me n wai decided to sit in the staff room..den i saw dear msg me to call a.s.a.p.. in my heart dis fellow ask to call a.s.a.p as if some one pass away..n the truth is ya..at 1445 nani esah pass away..thou we were separated 10 years ago as she was send to peaceheaven.but still i rmbr that she dote on those grandchildren from the eldest till mumtaz den she was away..from work i ask ate charlyn for leaving early n she gave me ph for today..thanks alot ate..den i rush back hm change n den rush to tamp..reach there the body is not back.so ya sit n chat w cousin..the body came late cos we need to verify alot of ting cos nani esah is not spore pr she is china actually..so ya..i can see d diff wen dadi n nani pass away n hers.mayb not many noe her..gosh me n dear actually jus plan to visit her like next week saturday.n this happen..wen mami yah n kala dah reach home iqbal was saying last year nani today nani esah who's next at that time i was stunt..the person in my head is atuk..i have to admit this den its hard for me to accept dadi's death slowly i grow up n use to it.den till now i still cant accept nani death n today nani esah..if he goin to go i dun wish that but if that happen i go bonkers for sure..i be wailing.i jus got nothing to say..i noe one day everyone have to go.but i jus cant let him go.not now at least aftr he can see another of his great grandchild..o allah pls... dun take them away now..i beg u..n the way akhbar say out everything really suave me

heyyysss

2009-05-31T21:22:00.003+08:00

i have not been updating..lazy liao...tired w work.home issue n some trip..hmmm..me n cuzin got some wish list to be achieve...heees n must really do it..hmm did i like update that i was on night? hmmm for god sake i n man xin dun like nights..nights is tiring la..but quite fun..hmmm lets hypocrite's...i jus dun understand ppl..really tjeytense to be nice to u.talking to u nicely n all n behind u they likr talking damn lots bout u la sia..i hate it sei..i mean like be go damn it mature la..it will never end if u were to keep on talking abt ppl..n u can even talk about ur own bestie..n wen u realise they noe abt it u try to talk nicely to the culprit..get a life la.how cheap u r..n by hating ppl who got nothing against u..like? omg..i jus hate that type of person..arghh really..y girls cant be like 95% of guys whereby they wont even gossip abt others..really sia..thats y it say girls have much more sin than guys..reason they tends to gossip more..by gossiping u jus taking that fellow sin..damn it..i noe i also got sin where i cant say abt others but ya we can see our money decreasing or increasing in bank..imagine we got sin's bank..i think it go higher..thats u b argh..omg! lol..really sia..thats all i have n wann to say...hmmm cant wait for the next outing w nurul n andy..wohoooooooo....

imm back

2009-05-10T01:42:00.003+08:00

heyyyys im back..i jus hiatus like for 3 days.hahas..ntg to blog thou..hmmm i've been sick like few days..suckss man..heess hmmm let me tell u abt this fellow who been making me smile.basically N and me hav been talking on te phone tis few days n N suddenly say everything abt me in jus one shot n he can even tell my fav colour,drinks n ya..i was stunned n was like *jaw open* i called him a bomoh..hahha
im like totally lost.n to extend tt nurul n andy tot he is a stalker.lol.n they tot mabe its one of my x bf game. but nah i noe x bf he is not that cheap to play with this game..hmmmm but N is nice..he is impressive n he jus noe how to put words to say. N IS NOT A SWEET TALKER AND I MEAN IT.. lol..N talk with experience.n he teaches me quite a few thing..arghhhhhhh wanna sleep..bubye

everything shall over now

2009-05-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

i dreamt abt us being so happy together.in that dream we promise to be happy n will always b together. wen i woke up i hope that the dream come true.later i think back to jus let u go.go far away from me.we shall act as fren n only jus a fren or we act dat we dont even noe each other.
from the bottom of my heart before this ends thanks for always be there for me.thanks for at least once in the relationship u make me smile n trust u.thanks for showing me to face the fact.thanks for telling me wat does love mean.ur mistake tot me that it takes two hands to clap.i know wat it mean.this relationship ends not bcos of 3rd party.
to her im being harsh n putting tings hard for u.now u guys are back together i shall move on.far way.
to u: tc of urself..tc of her n ur junior.dont forget to eat.n ya dis dumb girl who been w u for years will leave now.n ya u asked me b4 if i ever hate u n will i forgive u? n will i miss u? my ans i've never hate u n i always fogive u.n i wont miss u.im sorry if i ever did mistake.o ya pls throw all the item i gave u.dun make her hurts.i hope u guys relationship will grow longer than our past.take care..

to lin yu jun: thanks ya babe! appreciate it we shall meet up soon!

한국어 언어에 있는 나의 블로그

2009-05-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

계속 생활은 당신이 working.you 당신의 자신의 money.spend를 그것 주의깊게 찾아내야 한인 후에 단단하다 당신의 부모에게 그것을 주십시오. argh 아이쿠. 때때로 우리의 자신의 돈으로 우리는 휴가와 모두 그것에 소비해 경향이 있다, 그러나 돈이 큰 문제점이다, 아이쿠 나에 진짜로 위로 저장해야 한다, 당분간 나의 블로그 전부 쓸 것이다 읽고 싶다 이렇게 알아낸다 그것을 너자신, 악 저, 그러나 진짜로 im, 배우, 장소 및 지금 언어 조차 의 웃음 밖으로 제비 보인다 한국으로 한국 언어 haha 의 누구이건으로.I는 이슬람교로 한국사람에게 결혼을, 그 전심으로 개조해야 한다 생각했다 조차 또는 그는 그 자신 이슬람교이고, 신 위함을 위해 체재할 것이다 싱가포르 와야 한다 또는 일단 나가 건너와야 하면 나는 그러나 2 달 건너온다, 그는, 나의 우상이다 김 hyun joong 같이 누군가, 아이쿠 i 완전히 사랑한다 그를 의 lol 부유하다

나는 김 hyun joong sunbae를 사랑한다

How do u judge a person

2009-05-05T10:00:00.004+08:00

never thot of blogging.but this small ting make me wanna share n add on wat had happen..its not from me it was from hyrul anuar.it something i really agree..

How do u judge a person and to be certain of his/her sincerity, despite the many possibilities that he/she is smart at putting up a front or is naturally genuinely an angel at heart?
Judging someone through his/her looks? So how, the ugly ones are the kindred souls while the goodlooking ones have the evil minds? Or isit the other way round, you get smittened with goodlooks and pleasant personality yet deep inside so cunning and living in a world of hypocripsy, and you despise the not-so good looking ones and think they oughta be banished from the face of earth?
Is it through manipulation of words? To make use of situation and gain sympathy, to smile deep inside feeling victorious over the garner of much support and triumph over the power of being a well quipped and intelligent liar?
To know someone personally, beats knowing through words of mouth, through words written or through the persona put up to cover one's true self.
Knowing a person includes knowing his/her family, life background, friends and how these people around him/her feels about the person, as an individual and as how he/she was ever related to them.
Sometimes you need to feel being appreciated sincerely. Not for the wrong things u've done, never for the wrong intentions in mind.

i have something to add on base on wat recently happen.someone judge a person shortcomings.as that person usually mixed with girls but THAT DOESNT MEAN HE IS A GAY or HALF!!(made that point in ur mind!) isnt it wrong to mingle w girls? among 10 including him he has the most healthier life.n worse still u humiliated him infront of everybody! gosh.if u want to tell him that he is not supposed to b there call him out n say nicely.really im not satisfied.whoever is not happy with this post by all means can tell me in my tag right now everyone who attend that engagement shld noe wat happen n who im reffering to.im jus stating the fact! you guys can badmouth abt this that i n him cant get along n im supporting him.so wat im supposed to do grin n say whoa strike one? HELL NO!!thou me n him(the one got humiliated) has always had misunderstanding n ppl badmouthing us saying that i or he got something against each other n we r trying to make this relationship btw us better apart still he dont deserve this!

2009-04-22T19:31:00.009+08:00

wen things at nani's place goes bored this wat happens

i miss raqeef!

2009-04-19T01:53:00.004+08:00

wen he was only 6months

he was 4 years old

recent

i didnt plan to blog actually but something happen today.something sweet that touches my heart.something abt this boy. the boy that always makes his sister smile of his jokes his laughter n definely his smiles. i missed him sooo much. since I've started working I've not been meeting him.he is jus too far.usually they say kids hard to remember u if u didn't meet them for a long. i deny that.hhmmphh.so Wat happen actually as usual today got some gathering at nani's place.so yeah n they(my aunties n uncles) will definitely disturb him by criticising me.so he cant accept n call me and complain to me.n ya hahahs.thats so cute of my lil bro.i miss you darlz.i've been yearning to meet u.gosh.hearing ur voice make me drop my tears.i love you raqeef

boooos im back

2009-04-15T15:54:00.004+08:00

heyday's have not been updating.not that I'm busy but I'm just lazy..hahahazzzz..last update was like 2 weeks ago.whoa ting has been happening. n i manage to talk to my hubby.gosh missing hubby so much..hubby misses me 2.i Noe that.hahaha let me make a clarification hubby is not my bf but indeed my bestest friend n its a she..o yea n today is the engagement.im sad :((. as a bestie i shld b happy bt im not.n she getting married on this 30th.im more sad :(:(:(:( ..sob sob sob
i cried on the phone w her.hurhhh it was her decision anw.its sucks la but somehow i hav to accept.aftr i hung up w her the next moment i msg faj.faj oso miss her n wanna talk to her. haixxx.the worse part i can even tell bestie once u reach spore u guys have to **v**c*(faj shld noe wat tis mean) gosh..ruining!!! wat a life.talk to bestie till my ppc low.but bestie i pray for ur health n i wan u to b back asap its been two months n yes exactly 2 months u leave us.im jus goin crazy.o my.apart from hubbybestie prob.ytd this freaking sis of mine younger sis!!! overdose of panadol n i heard ppl say this gosh her sis is a nurse and the sis did that.lim pei kali kong argh!! the feeling is like someone stabbing u from the back.my mistake send her to NUH.idiot sia that moron.reason for taking its bcos of that bastard! yeah bastard i noe u gona read tis n let me tell u i dont give a damn who u r.u anjathi(gangster) ryt ok we see..u bloody liar.n their freaking r'ship is only 5mths.tis gals are only a few months r'ship wanna overdose n got hang over for some pathetic misunderstanding.i dun undrstand sia.then wat abt me who been wit him for years.i hurts more n to the extend he did something worsen i didnt kill myself.come on move on.where her dignity wen that bastard say he dun wan her anymore.haixx so yeah ytd me n kevin stayed up till 2 am with her.gosh.kevin is soo nice to my sis la.idiot nvr open ur eyes.i wanna slap her but i gas i did slap n punch her before wen she go chalet n nvr came back n she skipped her math n level exam.so i shall save my energy now who noes she gona do something worse aftr this.i tink aftr this i wont b me handling i shall pass to the higher authority which my elder sis to handle.let the fire plays arnd w her game. n o ya recently i had a sudden chills im like shivering like hell n i took anarex then i manage to sleep as i was on morg shift the next day i woke as per normal n suddenly some one knock on the door calling my name my sis went to see who as she need spec to see she cant really see who was that so she jus go back to sleep so my mum ask me to open wen i peep at the hole i only saw the person wearing green moving toward the stairs area so in less than a min i open the door n he not there n not even turning back as he can hear the door opening.im curious of who he is.

wat a fcuk day

2009-04-04T21:12:00.005+08:00

seriously it a fcuking day.firstly he that shall not be named as im super duper angry with that person promise to send me to work n bloody hell he last min say he cant..fook!! n im like an idiot rushing to work..n i missed the bus tho i run still e fcuking driver jus go like that..bloody hell..ok that fine there.so reach work as usuall will get bread n milo..reach ward go to locker n ARGH!!! i left my uniform at home!!! fook.. really totally blank was abt to breakdown..go to wei ling saying i need her favour.n ask daya opinion.n talk to leila.end up wei ling lend me her uniform..gosh so paisey..wah liaook den after wei ling pass over she gave me her uniform.heee..dennn work as per normal as usuall will have some pissed off thing that will happen(ignore as it past n parcel of a job)hmmmm ok den aftr work i overslept in the bus n the driver was angry.as i walk home the rain pour heavily..yaaaaaa shotsss..i cant curse the rain but jus endure it.. as i walk tears drop..arghh i hate it..(too emotional i admit) but things jus now in a way..arghghhhh itsss hiimmmm n this family thats o my tot..goshhh..went home n rest..tooo tired already.seriously den change blog skin n now updating..haiiixxxx

I HATE MAN!!!!!!

2009-04-03T04:50:00.004+08:00

surprisingly i was awaken by some issues that happen juss now..after wat had happen i swear i hate mans! i dunno if i could live without it in my future life.but insyallah i will..my aim is to take care of my mother.she's my precious one. i used to dream having kids n all..but im too young to say all this as i dunno wat is going to happen aftr this. i really don noe..but watever it is i dun wan to ting of man.the only thing i noe is work,upgrade n hate them.only surviving for my mother! i dont need man to support me.for those ppl who read this post and is dun like it im sorry but this come from my heart.only me n myself noe wat i am goin thru.i have reason that i can lay out why i hate man. shedding tears for them wont really work thou i still shed. for now i realy need tazzy to hug her tightly to ease off this pain.. ouch!!! y on earth im still crying..yaa shootssss....allah really shows me 1/4 of this life. thanks allah for listening to my prayers n telling me the ans.thanks allah.. thank you soo much.. i miss dadi.wen incident happen jus now i was praying she could coax mama. dadi if only u still arnd. i love n miss u.. atleast show up in my dream.i wanna see u. i miss u. i wanna b strong like u. facing problems w calm. i miss u soo much granny!!

2009-04-03T01:28:00.002+08:00

heyyys ya...tmr is like my off day..waitt opps i mean today is my off day..hmm gona meet shasha den go watch movie den to eat..hahah..den at 5 meet up w syanas to ngaji.. hmmm work is fun..especially wen got kaki..hahan its manxin today..lol..really have fun with all our nonsense..n farhana ask me out tis monday to tis slimming tingy..hmmm so goin w mama..i really dunno wat to update..o ya there one more ting left... im free!!! yohoooo!!
hahah..ok stop it thats all..

someone said dis
You are a living legend. You have a welcoming smile that is warmth itself. Your glamor and feminine grace doesn't ever diminish. You have an outgoing quality that makes it entertaining for the people around to be with you. You also have a style of dressing and design that shines with creativity. Keep up that brave courage in you!People like you as soon as they see you! You look sincere and trust worthy!
hehheh thanks ya

i miss nursing life n sharfina!!

hello again

2009-03-31T01:09:00.002+08:00

has not been updating... dont ask me why cos im jus plainly buzy..heeee...hmmmm ok hello to the new skins..hahah..been like doing it like the whole noon..haixxx not really happy with it..lol..ok soo yea i've been playing games with fhariz at viwawa for the past few days...hmmmm buddy seems to be busy..haiiixxx..suppose to meet buddy today but i totally forget.thank god she never waited for me..for today i help mama to cook lol...i cook steamed pomfret fish..lol..mama say its abit sour..nah i dun care.the dish n rice totally finish..n gfor the dessert we had nagasari..(banana something idk) i did that too with the help of mama n baby..lol she really kpo wanna do this n that.. so then aftr all that n eat i play game n chat with zai.gosh he irritating.lol..hmmm WORK has been great..the other day i help out afternoon shift i was on morg but since afternn amalina mc n not enuf staff i help out,,hmmm so yeah i went back at 8..mum was nagging but ignore.she nag is bcos i missed driving class..gosh pathetic..o yeah rceived my full pay..give dad n mum n spend alot..ass.. i should save abit i did..so yeah gona open a saving acct n then ask them to dedct from my pay certain amt..so yeah...goshh tmr outing w nurul was cancel cos i on pm shift.idk y roster was change but nurul was upset.its ok i owe u earl swensens so u get it on my pay day k cousins..oh she's turning a year older on the 1st april..wish her sucess n i love her lots.hmmmm gas i shall go n rest tired man...hmmm so yeahhhh..update soon..oh yeah pastamania now is halal..yippeeeee

boriing...

2009-03-23T23:08:00.009+08:00

hmmmm today josephine called asking if im well to work.so i check my temp n its 37.9.so i told jo im not coming..hmmm den i cont sleeping.den woke up at 10 get ready n took 31 to cgh..so waited there till dd's operation done..so aftr that hd our lunch.i dont really have appetite so yeh i jus had drink.then took train wanna travel to redhill wen i bump with shaheerah.sat with her chat n chat n ask her blog link.n shoots i told her i patch back w him.she was like WHAT!! everybody seems to b like against it. i dunno y..but ya.i dont noe.maybe it gonna end soon..it seems to be..it better be.lol..i dunno la..im jus confused...so then reach city hall she leave n i stop at tiong meet fai n walk back home. wen i reach home i change then do fai resume.den sis tot of doin roti kirai..so we did.mama cook curry n we do e roti kirai.end up mama did everything.thats normal.lol..so now me blogging n chatting with mr Zai. ass he forever will irritate me..thats for today.wannna rest

ps: only an idiot doesnt noe e different between sister n cousin..ass!

after a long time..

2009-03-22T21:39:00.004+08:00

Firstly to buddy..congrats to u n zihang.and hope tis relationship will last long..ok so now buddy got bf.i'll b alone.. :(

hehe shall go out soon..next outing to sakura den pub..huhhu.letss partieeeeee.... wonder if buddy px wanna tag along..*pray*or maybe buddy n me can go pulau ubin....zihang is invited.im not tt bad..lol..

ok lets talk abt work..

working with those peeps has been great n ya they really nice,supportive,understanding ppl.i started to like e environment.but i notice something wherever u go u have to be mindful abt wat u do.cos others are watching.b urself be normal.laugh w ppl arn,co-operate cause u will nvr noe ppl backstab u..thats life basically..hmmmm so yea...

now come to him..

between the both of us end like 2days ago.it really hurts me alot wen u did e same ting again.i told u to choose properly.tink abt it.i nvr force u to move on w me if u n i are not happy.u wanna sae abt we been together for long ok its accepted.but its ur decision,it ur fault,yes i did mistake also but wat u did to me really hurts me. i never even say a single ting wen i took care of her.jus tell me the truth.where ever u wan to go or with whom i dont care cos i noe the both of u will definitely patch again for the gal.i dindnt blame u tis time but y u have to lie.i told u that i can accept to any changes im prepared for it.but u make me hate u by ur lies.gosh!! i dont want to contact back with u.thanks alot for leaving a footprint that causes hatred and pain in my heart..

i really gonna move on..

had a long day

2009-03-16T22:44:00.002+08:00

today is baby daniya bday..hmm happy bday lil baby.. so ytdwe had a small gathering.. at changi.. we had pit.. we roasted chicken,seafoods,fish,hmmm so on n ya.. hmmm really had fun. i was called e naughty gal..as mama ask me to sleep as today im working mawning shift..so i was like giving excuses..we chat *gossips*.. ghost story telling..fishing haha *random* im soo not in that..i really wanna c e "ting".. ytd bubu and auntie julie saw it like alot of time..haixx really suxx to see.. haha.. well den chat n all den at 2.30 i went in the tent to sleep w my niece,dotty.. they really had a gud sleep. and i swear they make my body ache with all e kicking and to e extend of goin on top og my body.haha.. so sleep den due to noise pollution. i cant really sleep well.woke at 5.. get ready by 5.30 we leave..reach home arnd 6am.bath n get ready. den off to work.. working w wati was fun..only at e end part wen leila did checklist w me, i was really knocking off.gosh.. i went home straight w my uniform.. really tired.reach home eat n den sleep. i was totally fatigue la sei.. den woke up at 9.30.. eat bread den now blogging..n i swear my body aching.
ever since i bz i dun really have e time to bother abt him. i hope tis feeling faded.but ytd during e pit,e environment juz remind me of him.thank god i have them to support.argh shall not talk abt tis..

2009-03-10T23:12:00.003+08:00

i never feel tis way before shedding the tears for a fren now i realise that u r my bestie. i noe tis is going to happen one day but if i Noe u goin thru tis i wont argue with u.i will meet u and hug u tight before u leave at least i can meet u before u go.but i didnt expect it to happen.i cant blame ur parents its their decision they have all rights. when u reach India u text me didnt noe that will be the last msg before u r someones property.. spoke to u before u leave din tot that will be e last time till u be back which i dont noe wen. i just miss you sharfina! i regret i should have listen to u den to other people feelings, should have meet u. i regret sei fina.. after talking to ur dad i jus feel tremor n breakdown.i really dont noe wat to do now.pls show me the way Allah. i jus miss u bitch!! will i have the chance talking and meeting u? i hope ur dad wont break his promise.if i could go india now i will!!

i miss sharfina..

hmmmmm my day

2009-03-08T20:22:00.003+08:00

woahhh im soo fatigue..ytd the whole day working helping out for the prayers n all.ytd wasnt tt much to be done..den slack till 3 am..n woke up at 9..so reach there go eat den start to work..not really that busy..this year maulud is better then previous..some respect was at least given.. and yeah me n taz have a new word and ist LOL'a...she start the nonesense n yeah ytd we wen out. n to our suprise we bump into my idol!! haha..but i didnt manage to tegur him.. n then i call my mr idol! and he was like calling me sombong..n yeah lidya got contact with shni..hope she's fine...
jus now wen to arnold n had our dinner den mai call me saying that she n fhariz had a misunderstanding..haixxx...dunno la wats goin on..hmmm aftr arnold send raqeef den went home..bath den had my damn coffee..n then saw yu jun..miss her actually..hmm promise to play wawa aftr updating blog..den milah pm me saying i was missed!! she was missed to..pity her for being alone in ur ward..relaxx k bitch sooner or later u have a fren my love..it takes time for evrything to happen..
hmmm den now blogging n i shall end it here...

2009-03-02T02:05:00.003+08:00

heyyyyy been busy with work..haixxx but work is fun been enjoying with all the staff and sister..they r really nice,supportive and great collegue.. hmmm life? firstly boyfie is backk..i really mis him tho.. tyms i tink all the fights is just a challenges for us..hmmm im ready to face it as long u stop accusing me.. i jus hate wen ppl accused me for something i didnt do..now is my daughter she has grown one more teeth..cool ryt? lol.. being a mother is tiring but wen it comes to ur child latest outcomes it fun tho..im always proud to have raqeef,baby and and dotty in my life..hmmm ntg much too update or yea i miss my bestie fina..wonder when she is coming back..hmmmm missing u bitch!!

im just too tired love

2009-02-23T22:23:00.002+08:00

work,family and my gal..im totally occupied.. previously is only campus and family.. now i have another responsibilty..she's now my life,my heartbeat,my soul and my everything.. im tired totally tired and occupied..was supposed to go har par villa with kimmie and lin.. but it end up raining..den it we plan to meet at ct hall to marina sq..finish work change den went to take 92 to bouna vista..den mum called saying baby got high temp..rush home..boyfie oso quickly rush home and i went kk waiting for baby and boyfie.. and bloody hell boyfie forget her birth cert..assholezz..the urge of killing boyfie was really there.. ok skipped tt part..then meet up with tazzy and maira..bought frappel caramel..waited den at 7.30 maira n tazzy need to leave so den wait and wait w boyfie den only at 8.30 baby can go back..boyfie paid $85..gosh..money is damn tied...

someone said this: Never say goodbye when you still want to try. Never give up when you still feel you can take it. Never say you don't love a person when you can't let go.

work work work

2009-02-20T21:14:00.004+08:00

working has been great..today comes another fight oops no the fights carry on..shitss right..haixx..wen i change my uniform to normal clothing u suspect me goin out. gosh n today u wen in my msn n ask my fren of my ward jus to check if any male staff..eh idiot where u wan me to work den if u don want any male staff der even mosque got male staff la k..pls change ur damn attitude..yes jealousy is a policy but im working my lovely boyfie!! wen i think of leaving u baby face will jus pop in my mind..i jus cant leave her..she like everything to me..haiz but if my life book written that i will be separated by her n u im well prepared..not everything in this world belongs to us..

to sabri im not angry at u for telling him my ward.. i noe he force u cos in his dictionary ders no regret and sorry..he is just a jerk..

ok im done with all the anger..

----red is the colour of the day----

my days goes like sha la la la bebey!!

2009-02-17T22:42:00.004+08:00

latest post was like 12 feb..hmm let me tok abit of here and der.. so basically on 13 feb i woke up early morning like to change my uniform..ok after i went to west coast to pass the letter.. then to lau pa sat get lunch headed to tiong bahru to go to the bank.. aftr everything done lepak with faizal n e bro den only reach home n ya its mama birthday.. happy birthday mama. ilysm!! so we brought her out to have seafood..den aftr tt went home n rest...
14 feb--happy valentine peeps.. ok was supposed to go out with my dotty n hubby but end up i goin shop..so shop!! business was slack i swear it was damn slack..
15 feb--shop again..today business was much better...sale was much more than previous day..after work went home straight as i was damn tired..plus tomorrow work.
16 feb..first day of work..i was like totally blur la sei..suddenly dey ask me to go to the wards...i got c class ward 54..ortho plus respi ward..hmm anwthe staff der was super nice la sey..even the sister..woah cool kepe.. ok dey are like friendly..haha..ok
den comes today.. wen i meet anther ppl is like i EN in team b with my two nice n funny hca..ok work was fun n plus der were like ite students..ok let me talk abt the staff der hmm so today while like waiting to go home slack w kak ju,kak siva,daya,M one more i cant remember lol..ok den i was like hearing wat they say abt the staff..seems that got one staff its like black..kk wateer..i noe my attitude, i noe my limits n most i shld noe my work..hmmm shld meet razaly and uma aftr work den suddenly got prob with bubu and bhai..so ya let them be i want to rest so tired..byebye..love love

2009-02-12T00:06:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to my dear kamilah wee... love u bitch.. n ya u r one year older!!! lol..keep in touch bitch

its grad day!!!

2009-02-11T14:17:00.006+08:00

ok firstly ytd i really dunno whether to go for grad or not..so yea end up i went after alot of consideration,cries and pleads..hmm so i meet rekha at redhill mrt stn by 7am..she look damn nice lah ehk in uniform.. den we drop at bedok to meet fina..took bus 2. i was like standing infront of farhah mom but i din noe its her..ok meet eyra at t blk..she look nice with the make up.. den we walk2 n keep calling rena n sha end up they didnt turn up.. so went in cafe 1.. saw farhah,farz n e fren i dunno her name.salam them then salam farhah mum n she tego she saw me in bus. o ya den we wait at e escalator before gg up to function hall for registration. so farhah mom was like shouting calling her up..n she keep saying the mum kecoh..but to me she's cool..n rox n farhah was like showing middle finger wen i say tt..ok den aftr norsiah bitch n mira came we went up to register so wait for haresh n fatin mum..so wen i saw hidayat i pass the invitation to him..so ya den i went to auditorium. so its like mira,eyra,julianah,me,rekha,fina,fatin sit tgt.. n den mr A came..gas wat we wore the same colour shirt..co-incidently..so mr A story shld not be include here as sum ******* will definitely read n ya sape mkn chilli terasa pedas ye!! ok afr grad i str8 went home cos Elly is sick..pity her..ok reach home jaga dia den she sleep i oso sleep damn tired sia..ok wen i woke up mama ask me to eat so i bath den eat..ok den i saw din n ask him to come up n according to him nadya is no longer w him..he keep disturbing me n tt fooker..hate it sia..i was so angry n he say tt Natalie(dunno who is she;his frens daughter something like tt la) is cute adorable n pretty unlike fooker i was like pls k fooker daughter is oso pretty ok..n din was like woah siding him huh..idots!! den din say he got guinnea pig n brought up..ok its was nice but black lol..so we like talking abt it n all den i decide to go tiong bahru i offer him but he's tired..so ya aunty ifa is following so as to mama..den papa tired so only us. walk there den uncle dont allow aunty to go..like wtf so we end up go back home..haixx..but nvm..tmr still can go..ok so here i am blogging..hmmm..ok i gas its end here need to have a very good rest.im too tired for everything

ok watever..

2009-02-05T16:06:00.004+08:00

hmmm let me start with 3 feb--- firstly happy bday dear syanas.. on her bdae i woke up early morg to meet fina n razaly den go to sch..we went to take transcript den after tt i went to nuh for my check up,collect uniform n sign contract..ok the funny part during check up is wen i need to do urine dipstix i swear i cant past urine..lol..i was like waited for myself to urine until i finish everything then i feel like passing urine n then show to the nurse there n i left to sgh to register with snb.. n went home after tt..n i walk home..lol..it took half hour for me to reach..happily listening to mp3..so ya..was resting at home.too tired..
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ok den 4th feb wich is ytd i swear i was bored to death..i ask fid if he did called him a sucker n he say he didnt its ok he is a sucker!! ok 1stly i didnt go anywher n was accused of going out..f lah.. im like sick n tired at home taking care of kid n u could blindly accused me..i dont even have time for my activites, i sacrifice everything even to the extend of gg out with my family jus for u n the kid n u say tt to me.. r u a human being or animals? dont u even have feelings for others or is ur heart totally blind to see for urself or atleast feel tt there's an idiot who sacrifice her youth life jus for ur fucking mistake!! y mus u do tis to me!! if u hate me tell me cos i hate u more n i swear i regret alot.. i had enuf of all tis..u never appreciate me.. n today the whole day i've been at home n i wonder wat is goin to happen after this..

thank you so much!!!

a fcuked up day!!

2009-02-02T22:45:00.006+08:00

its really a fcuked up day!! y im rude? its bcos the more i tok to u the more i hate u n d more i will tok rudely so the best way is to hang e bloody phone!! thou ppl say alot abt u n her i still shutss n back up d both of u.the both of u decide to split n dont put the burden on the kid..gosh..if u cant accept wat i say then let it be!! at least im not rude like her!! i dont want to b rude sia.. u noe how much i love you! thou after alot of ting happen.. my sacrifice has always been blind in everyone eyes!! no one appreciates wat i've done..fcuk sia.. n its really irritating a promise is a promise largh..if cannot make it tell earlier la.. do i look like a joker to you!! gosh fcuked up sia..it has been always like this..im suffering with all this nonsense..plus with ppl arnd me..gosh im goin crazy..i jus cant stop shedding fcuking tears..a tears which can be kept for other purpose is been shed for stupid stuff n ppl. argh im stress!!! its jus a fcuked up life with fcuked up ppl!! i dont wishh to face all this.. i misses sch soo much..if only now i either in sch,attachment or work i wont b like this! i also miss raqeef,baby n tazzy..

---------------has been shedding tears for fcuking reason

2009-01-31T23:51:00.004+08:00

i wAs talking to sha2 abt all tis prob. . n she really solve it. . hmm i shall listen to her. . i've to move on.. ok today at kedai was damn penat. . but everything seems to be fine.. lol. . ok firstly congrat to mr chris fo his wed. . sorry didnt turn up. . i was working. . so sorry teacher n i hope u dont have a wedding crasher n hope ur food remains alot. . lol.. n ya mr cris u owe me n kamilah wee something. . hmmm n ya tis kamilah she n faj went to watch bridewars without me!!! so bad. . i hate u 2. . lol..like as if. . ok i swear i do not noe wat to blog. . im tired. . bubye
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shedding tears. .

2009-01-29T10:37:00.005+08:00

day by day im goin crazy. . it jus not me. . im really confused of wat is happening. . i dunno if i should accept him or not. . but now my mum seems to be ok with him. . n even my sis say y cant we give a guy who jus repent from his mistake a 2nd chance. . i can give him a chance but the thing is im still young to take care of children. . im not ready. . wat will my family say? im totally confused. . but i do pity the kid.wat shall i do. . thanks to faj,yaya n janice for listening to me. . wat they say was really true. . im still confused. . i cry for almost everday wen everytime he ask me. . y mus he come only after i like someone else. . argh dumb la..
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my days

2009-01-27T18:15:00.004+08:00

phew. . i pity the kid. . thanks ayu for asking him for me.. i owe u a big favour. .i noe he wont tell me if i ask. . i dunoo aftr wat ayu told me if the truh or not. . mayb he lie? i really confused. . but thanks to ayu. .i appreciate it thou. . hmm let me say abt my bbq pit for papa's bday. . everything went fine. . it was a happy moment i din really go for sun tanning. . hmm but ytd i went with atuk n all e cuzzie den we went to sun tanning. .quite fun. . then i announce to most of them abt my job. . and all of them seems to b happy for me.. lol.. 16 feb i will b starting to work. . 3rd feb signing letter. . i hope i dun get c class.. i had enuf. . lol. . but the nm was nice.. hmm. . i really miss hym thou.. haixxx. . if only im ........... dont tok abt it. . wat past is past. . move on ika. . ok i gtg wanna go to mr teh tarik. . lol so addicted to the lime juice

--- <3

wat happen jus now was so random. . lol. . didnt expect him to be msging me. . hmmm wish him take a good care of himself n daughter. . i still thinking. .

thanks!

2009-01-20T02:23:00.003+08:00

i was like talking to that idiot. . n suddenly he called me dog!! f la!! i got feeling k. . n cmon i totally hate u ok in a nicer way i dont even like you la sei. . its u that say all that n hell u called me a dog. . i got feeling man!! im pissed off!! ok ok since fid the only guy left in my contacts i ask him if he like a gal will he call her a dog n he say no n he say those tt called a gal dog is a sucker.. n yes fid he is a big tym sucker who makes gals hurt. . **sucker**. . n ya fid dont criticise abt urself!! its not abt e face its abt the heart.. o ya thanks to him,frzs n kamilah for cheering me.. gosh. . i was totally f up. . i totally hate him. . **sucker**

haiyoo!!

2009-01-19T20:37:00.005+08:00

ok tis morning after gg to e market,pay bills den on my way back home saw wawan mom. . so tis time i bring the courage n ask her how is he. . n she tell me tt he is coming out on the fasting month. . i feel so happy. . gosh. . im still waiting for wawan. . tho it will be long but to think back fasting month is coming oso. . 20th august. . 7 months to go. . tho by tt tym i will be at boon lay. .i will definitely come here. .i really miss him. . soo much.. i wonder if he do miss me. .gosh. . i always pray that this is his last time inside. . no more nonsense. .haix.. ok tis few days i've been to Mr teh tarik . . wich is like surprising. . ok lah. .the drinks there is nice oso. . the tea was not bad. . better then serangoon tea. . can vomit.. wat abg din say was true Mr teh tarik drink is nice.. hmm today me n faizah went to bugis get for mama n papa present. . we manage to get 1 shirt n belt for papa and for mama is blouse n belt. . hmmm. . they were happy. . and we are so called broke. . lol. . really. .haix.. chat with fid n e funny ting he dunno wats transcript. . funny guy!! idot fid. . lol

i got a job!!

2009-01-17T00:27:00.007+08:00

firstly ytd i was quite sad abt sgh tingy. . so since today my baby bday i at first didnt want to tell anything. . cos baby will b sad for me. . so i was sitting wen suddenly i talk in my heart with dadi. . n it strike an idea to print out my resume,my transcript,n level cert den tot of gg alexandra den to nuh. . so papa sending me. . but since mama is sick so i tell mum we jus go nuh. . so while writing the application there 2 others writing for psa job. . so im the only assistant nurse there. . so aftr writing the psa there ask to hold on n she called the nursing management then the nm say she in meeting by 5 she can reach and ask if i want it now or next week. . without hesitation i say yes and waited till 5. . so she came abt 5.30. . we tok n tok den she say u accepted. . i was like gosh. . i was soo happy. . lol. . i was soo happy. . i was telling everyone i got job. i oso told baby n was happy for me. . haha. .n im happy for u since u r discharged.take care of ur bone!! n i was happy today dadi death annivesary shows me the way to do sumting wen im down and end up im in joy. . so im a working gal. . oops shall i say lady den..lol. .ok i b starting by feb. . middle of feb. . n im soo happy. . thanks alot to the family love n frens tt been supporting me. . thanks!!

imysm

2009-01-15T15:18:00.004+08:00

2 people dat i miss soo much right now. . one is my dear baby mumtaz n one more is wawan. . omg. . i even dreamt about wawan. . gosh. . i really miss him. . and the sad part is wherever i go its him tt i see.. i do want to visit him but i doubt if he put my name as one of the visitors. i want to tok to his mom but usually all his siblings will be there. . paisey lei. . but the other day i jus ask to send my regards to him. . n he replies n ask me to wait for him.. gosh. . n watever relationship i am with bear i dunno seriously i dunno. . its sumting suprising its like a shock. . but before wawan leave he ask me to wait for him. . but the ting is we are moving to boon lay. . wat if we separated forever? wat if he didnt even called me? i didnt even want to change my num for him. . im confused. . till i tell mama ab i dreamt abt him n my heart,mind n eyes i only see him. . wat mama say was maybe i miss him soo much. .indeed yes. . i do. . n mama say maybe he oso miss me. . i dunno. . but i dreamt he in cell 32. . is there such ting? i wonder. . n i heard we can write letter to them if we noe the cell num. . but wat is e num? o gosh. . every single day i tink of him. . whenever i look at the kitchen window i 'saw' him. . i really missing him!!
n tmr my baby mumtaz bday. . i wish u happy bday syg. . i will always be with u. . remember tt. . i love u sis. . thanks dear for all ur support. . i really appreciate it. . no matter wat NO ONE N NOTHING EXCEPT ALLAH CAN SEPARATE US!!

2009-01-06T20:47:00.005+08:00

i dont know y for some reason i've not been updating my blog. plus im like most of the time 24/7 at home. . LOL sia. . ok firstly happy new year!!!

basically my plan for the year is to open a new book.lets bygones be bygones. hmm sch years has end. . i've graduated from nitec in nursing. . so im like an adult teens now. i need to support myself. hmm so the plan for the year will be get a job.which is like tomorrow is the interview den sign up with nursing board. .save up money,put aside cash for car license. pay up hp bills n laptop. .gosh. .it will be like WORK WORK WORK!!! n ya plus need to give my parents. hmmm i feel like hanging myself.during sch tym i hate sch but now i wish im still a student. yargh age doesnt matter if u really want to study but money is e big matter. time is money. .almost everything is money. . ok tts basically abit for the year plan. .

secondly watever is happening for this few days let it be. .i noe u gonna read but i really think abt it. the both of us really shld jus shutzz things up.let ppl say wat they wanna say i dont care.wat i noe they definitely will shut up n one day by e name of allah ppl will n can see who's the bad n good one. for those who trust n been listening to my sorrows thanks alot. .

thirdly im planning for a bbq pit for the family n the pit has been booked but somehow i feel like withdraw everything.hmm but i cant cause everyone noes abt it. . again its money matter. tis days i jus get tooooo sluggish. i sleep late nights like 4 am n wake up like 10am den its like i wont help my mum. . i dont noe. . n tomorrow interview im like. .errr y tmr. . goodness. . wats with me. . hmm i gas i shall do some yoga therapy to release my stress. . will update again

toodle-oo-

ika

2009-01-05T12:34:00.001+08:00

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2008-12-30T01:30:00.004+08:00

ok the plan for today. . oooopsy i mean 29.12.08 was supposed to be 1st me n kakak consult doc den get john a shirt den back home get ready n off to escape. . our timing is that we target to be at escape latest by 1pm. .den get lunch. .play games den at 8 grab dinner n go back home. . but it ended up to b. . me n kakak consult doc den get john a shirt and breakfast den back home,mama clean the house everyone get ready then we headed to jln sultan kakak wanna eat nasi padang.she miss it soo much den arnd 2 we headed to escape theme park. . first ting is HAUNTED HOUSE!! ok mama is so freaking scared the best part john is in. . but the bad part is non of the alive ghost scares us. . so ya. . den we go to inverter. .but mama n kakak sat down.. ok since its like only me,daniel n david playing n im the only gal. .they bullied me!!! hmph. . they left me all alone to q n off to play other game for awhile. . "brengset ye jadi org" so i was angry den i sat w kakak n mama. .den mama say abt this metro sale in expo. . so i wanna go n we left the boys to play n we shopping. . ok it really a sale i tell u. . it damn cheap lor. . so i shop for ***. .i ting my *** is like finishing.its definitely not d disposal wan.but its getting fewer.ok anw the *** is nice n cheap. .kakak buy alot n i disturb her saying tt wat in korea they dont sell is it? n she laugh. since i dont really bring my cash.i jus grab 3 first with tube dress. . which cost me only 12 buck altogether. .mama bought pillow.n kakak bought like 6 *** 3 P******. .baby pram. and 2 baby pillow.wich like she spent at only 89. . o ya she also g. . got mama glucosamine which is like 2 for 50 buck. . damn cheap sia. . im soo gonna go again like b4 sunday as its the last day. .david is really looking foward to celebrate new year here. . he say its like at last he got the new year feeling. . o ya after the shopping we go to east coast to grab dinner. . den it treat bowling. . hee. . i had really fun today. . seriously. . i was like begging kakak to come back here for hari raya this year.hopefully by the tym we shifted to new house. . n mama plan we celebrate christmas in korea. .im ok w it. .but i still wann to come back before new year. . hee.. still under planning yeah. . k im soo tired. . got to shoot my head off. . bye2. .

the day goes like

2008-12-28T21:57:00.006+08:00

heyy. . its been a long tym since i update. . hmm kk. . first i wanna sae tt kak erna is in spore. . hehe. . john nicholas first ever overseas trip to SINGAPORE!!! hehe. . if david his first visit is like korea. .so for john is here. . wohhooooo. . ok is like first day at here it was a suprise for mama. . haha. .mama was so happy but she nagg at us. . so the watever. . ok so me n kakak go out to sim lim sq,mustafa den bugis. . o yeah taxi are sucks n i mean it. . the erp,the extra charges n pathetic the town charges. . my goodness we almost broke mann.ok den actually wanna go sim lim tower but mama called saying tt john crying. . so me n kakak go back.we reach home few min bro n david reach. . den my 3rd sis n baby also reach like 5min later. . ok so for today its like a family re-union.gosh too many ppl n the worse part its at nek-yang(great granny) house.tok din got two big fat cat. . n d cat scared of ppl but the more dey scared the much more i feel tensed. nyehehe. .ok so den nenek busu gimme 10 buck n nenek gimme 50. . gosh. . wohoo. . john only got 10 each from them.yay. . so relax under neath blk w atok n the gang. . mimin dad keep hugging me. .n disturbing me. . uncle yusri come n hug me. . thou i noe abt his condition i act like as if i dont know. . ya watever its his probs.. so den he met kakak. . talk n all. . everyone ask abt my 3rd sis she left early.cos her husband side got wedd. . so ya. .ok den after everyone go,left the rest of them. . n ya then my future uncle he look exactly like ari wibowo n he damn rich!! nyehehe. . ok ika watever. . ok so tmr my plan will be like goin escape. . wohoooooooooooooooo!!! ok n ya forget this. . faj text me abt cohort chalet. . ermm but kakak is here so i doubt so im goin. . sorry babe. .o ya im soo gonna move maybe to bedok next year. . gonna miss ppl here den. .i hope by the time he is out den we move pls allah. . let him go out first den we moved.i really mish him. .o allah. . pray hard ika!!!

i miss my bby ♥ eu syg!! im waiting!! 1 year n 3mths gosh!! pls dear no more nonsense aftr this. . please!!!

ok till den bubyeee

2008-12-21T13:40:00.004+08:00

ytd while at east point there's tom n jerry show. . hehehe how i wish raqeef was der. . confirm he happy like hell. . so ya. . after the show n after lunch at kfc i was damn full. . me n taz was damn freaking full till we wanna vomit n we feel damn giddy..so we plan to go to vivo. .but sumhow we plan to go today wich den mami yah didn give us permission to go out. .so we sunplaza park.. n took pix. . so while at there fhir wanna change hp. . i dunno wat so great abt my scrap hp. . at first i dun wann cos i scared mami yah scold..but he keep saying tt she wont ok so we change. .but end up mami yah scold him. . so since today really got darn nuting to do i follow mama go pasar. den since ma not feelng well she ask me to cook!!! the dishes for today will be soup macroni. .so i cut all those stuff since im abit dumb so everyting fall off. . damn actually dowann mama to noe sekali she come out. . haha. .she end uo help me. . hehe. . so now me here blogging.. o ya. . baby is so cute playing fake psp with sound n all. . adorable. . love her mann

there she goes again lyrics

2008-12-19T20:26:00.003+08:00

From the chapel to the parking lot
All the Scriptures that she had forgot
Memories so overwrought
De murder Adieu for tonight
Never been such a delight
To make a human sacrifice Can meet in the alleyway You've got this occupation
And obligations to
Be sure that he suffers
Be sure that he fights
Say goodnight
Say goodnight (say goodnight)
She feels no contrite
[Chorus:]This wont be the first to last, its just about time
When it goes by so fast When dealing with the perfect crime
Wait by the balery led over to a charade
Wait for the cue
And strike with dismay
The night is young at the cabaret She makes sure her hair wont shake
To hesitate its no mistake
Shhh (ahh)
But pressure adds as her hands sweat
Its all procedure its a set He could see her silhouette Don't run tonight
It's out of his hands tonight
Her fingers on the trigger what a pleasant surprise
The look in her eyes
The demonic look in her eyes
Tell the whole story it's one simple line(one simple line)
The job was a sight
[Chorus:]This wont be first to last its just about time
When it goes by so fast
When dealing with the perfect crime
Wait by the balery led over to charade
Wait for the cue
And strike with dismay
There she goes again (There she goes agian)
There she goes again (There she goes agian)
There she goes again (gan gan gan)
Without a trace the scene was left with hints of your grace
And don't repent, the past has foregone time to move on (move on)
Till you're next in tombs to rot

jus because of a pathetic letter

2008-12-19T10:38:00.005+08:00

this blog will be say in malay. . takot ada org tak sepatutnye baca,terbaca. . ehh tolong lah. kau nak gaduh dgn aku psl surat? jgn nak merepek ok. . tu surat walaupun dari siapa kau tak perlu nak tau. . tu aku punya. . yg kau nak baca lepas tu nak cemburu n all kau buang masa kau. . n now sbb kan surat tu kita bergaduh? eyy org yg kasi surat tu kalau tau ketawa kan kau.n malah dia akan kasi lagy bnyk surat. . n lepas tu kau nak buang muka dgn aku? eh fuck largh. . kau perangai masi kebudak budakan. . kau nak ckp aku tak spent time dgn kau. . apa kau balik keje kita tak spent tym tgt. . yy sedangkan bdk yg umur lagi kecik daripada kau blh berpikir.kau apa otak mati ke apa? seriously la ehk kalau ni berterusan hubungan ni takkan lama. . kata jek banyak bercampuran tapi otak masi budak budak. . F lah. . jantan bodoh.dicsipline aku is hak aku jgn berani sentuh. . even msg hp aku jgn nak baca.kau ckp lah dulu dgn si babi tu boleh.k watever cos aku masi blum boleh menerima kau. kau buat aku benci dgn diri kau. .cukup aku cuba untuk terima kau after a real sudden of suprise. . tapi apa jadi smalam takkan aku lupa dan it take time untuk aku maafkan kau. .

i miss my raqeef. . if only he is here. . haixx. . 9 more days to go n he will be back. .

at last my op is done

2008-12-12T23:15:00.003+08:00

ok gosh its dmn freaking pain. . it really affect me talking n eating. . n plus jus now got abit of phlegm n discomfort so i try throwing out the phlegm n gas wat its bleed abit. . daddy came over to meet me. . he bought 1 tub of ice cream. . i can only feed in ice cream. . i called mdm qian straight after discharge. . she said since i got 15 days hospitalisation leave i don't need to replace. . pity charlynne need to replace alone. .. ok ok wen the en send me n one more boy to operation theatre was fine. . but once i reach its like so hectic. dey really rush tings. . put in the cannula n put on anaethesia then off i dunno wat happen. . not so cool sia. . n i wonder if they stitch it or clayed it? .hmm o ya now i understand the pain. .the feeling when the iv cannula is in ur hand. . how it is if the iv hartman or watever solutin is finish n the drip is not clamp. . hmm i feel it. . n wats e effect after anaethesia. .o n yea make sure after op try to pass urine. . gosh my stomach was distended mann. . haixx. . i really feel giddy untill now.. actually dr loke ask me if i wan to stay for another day but i dun want. . pretty bored mann. . hmm k lah. . wanna take medicine n off to sleep. .

2008-12-11T23:40:00.003+08:00

hmmm few minutes to go n i will Nil by mouth. . hehahas. abit weird. . cos usually i say to pt now its like me goin tru it. . hmm ok finally my operation n ya finally my course ended. . so ya us now got the pre-graduation briefing. . haha. . quite happy n sad. . hmm need t sign up at SNB. . need to pay $70. .hmm. . tues got interview with ttsh. . at last gonna get a job. . ok ok. . i dunno wat to write. . but seriously im nervous for tmr. .gosh wonder how the pain gonna be. . will i stay there long? aww. .

ooohhh so dumb of me. . im like chatting with andy i n forget his lil bro name. . soo sorry. . im just nervous. . hehe. . ok worse.. i say the wrong name for his lil sis. . ika!!! wats goin on. . k i wann drink ater before its strike 12. . bye bye. . update wen i discharge. . pray hard

2008-12-10T17:12:00.011+08:00

2008-12-10T16:54:00.006+08:00

i really cant believe this!! my posting is like goona end!! my 2 years course end!! at last. .niwaes kk posting was fun. . hmm some stupid tings had happened. . thank god im like the patience type. . if not tts it mann!!

2008-12-08T22:09:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to my dearest fajrina. .

hope u success always!!

n be happy with ur loves one!!

keep smiling babe :))

2008-12-06T21:58:00.001+08:00

5th DECEMBER

happy birthday nafisah!! love eu babe!!

2008-12-06T21:22:00.002+08:00

hmm watever happened on friday was really an experienced. . it really freak me out. .but thnk god every ting is ok. . we really drive der damn fast lah. . n ya my hand damn pain carry baby.not only dos in kk but my dear baby. gosh. . now my dear baby raqeef already left to thailand with my dad n muumy. . missing him. . he will back only by 28.haish. . hmm anw. . jus came back n abit tired. . hmm i really mis him now at this very moment. . dunno y but seriously only him in my mind now. . d trip to m'sia really open my eyes how precious a person is. n life is short at any point of time the person u love will leave u. seriously im not really readi to accept the fact if sum1 in the family gonna leave me. i still cant get over dadi.if he gona go now hu will b der fer me? he is everyting to me.our family has been brought up to love each other deeply.now i really scared if he gonna leave us. . i really wanna do special ting so tt i can keep in memories. i tot of doing it to dadi n nani but dey leave me already.i dun wan it to happen to him. dadi is the most person i need before,she my mum,granny,sister,fren n lover. ever since she leave everyting change. . i am really not ready for the next on. . oh 'allah' answer to my prayers. pls at least save tis tears for another time. tis year i really cried alot. nani's n adik's death really affect me.tis morg while sitting down.he didnt really tok much only ask if i had eaten n tts all he keptquiet most of the tym suddenly he ask me will he got a chance to come for my marriage? will he see my children? oh it really broke my heart into pieces. dadi ever ask me this befoe she leave.is this a sign or is he jus asking for his own info? at this moment how i wish he is jus by my side. with me. . how i wish n wants!! appreciate ur love want ppl. .

2008-12-01T17:18:00.004+08:00

actually i have no intention to blog today. . but since something had happen i decide to blog. . lets start w early mrg. . saw jovian in the bus walk up to wards with him n nobody had reach so i wen 7.11. . den during shift tym. . suddenly dis pt called. . she's had pain. . she really cant take it. . so some one call ssn. . n ssn say ok we send her to labour soon. . den in the cubicle left me,gaya n maria. . we saw the head quickly maria called he ssn.so its like suddenly me n gaya saw the baby out. both of our heart dropped out dead. if anything gonna happen we will so gonna get it. . so ya den all i can say to the pt relax. . everyting goonna be ok. . so ssn n doc came. . they quickly wipe the baby n we rush push the cradle fer the baby. . settle the baby n all. . then get to the mommy. . take out the placenta n all . . then ya its like abit chaotic. . so after everything done suddenly fire alarm. . me n juliana was like wat a first remembrance day. . so it turns out to b false alarm . . hmmm seriously my mind keep on flashing abt the traedy. . n the braviest part the mommy look so fresh. . she's not like some one who's like jus gave birth. . its really a memoriable day. . haa. .

2008-11-30T20:32:00.005+08:00

heyy my crazyy cuzziee. . thanks alot fer always be there fer me!! i appreciate it lotss. . wish u success n all the best fer u n ur boifiee. . love u loadzz

2008-11-28T23:54:00.003+08:00

seriously i jus dont under stand w ppl dis days. . fer god sake lah. . dun b such a kpo. . if u tink by tagging ppl blog make u happy u rwrong ok. . u r not jus making the tag box dirty but u are jus making ur name bad n end up lots of ppl condemning u. . if u tink its not affecting u y mus u disturb her? if u ink u r not jealous y must u hate tag her? if u have anyting against e writer den god damn it confront the writer face 2 face n not hate tag the writer. y mus u hide urself n hate tag the writer. . u r jus being such a coward den. . n ya tink before u talk. .

ok back to my life

so far i've done w my skills hehe thank to "hym". n ya left 2 more weeks for mother n child n the skills. . so i really need to rush w stuff n stay healthy. .hmm today morg we have fun. . since farhah is sick so me n charlynne do sponging so right after we sponge dis aunty b/o n wett the whole bed to think abt it i feel like puking. . haha all the shit kena the bed. . haha.. den aftr tt we goin next pt this charl was abt to drop linen basket. . the 3 of us laugh n laugh.. den basirah n khai not fergetting kian hua did skin traction. . at last i wen 2nd break. . hehe. . been waiting n wanting. . o ya jus nw suddenly pt black out. . i can see tt chai was pissed off. . hehe. . is bcos of low bp. . couldnt b hypo. . cause the bgm is 7.1. . my bgm not matter wat i eat its still below 4.5
weird sia.. im like retarded. . haha. . k wateve. . tis days wen ever eyra see my face she say i look pale. . n ytd this passer by come to me n say "missy u wann to seat u look so pale." " den i was like no thank you." weirdo am i dying. . ahahakzzzx. . o ya jus the pt give chocalate!! hehe. . so sweet of her!! speed recovery. . hmmm thats fer nw goin to mingle arnd to change the skin. .

2008-11-27T20:57:00.004+08:00

wat ever is goin to happen shall we face together. . tho i was angry,sad n blank still on the 2nd tot u need sum one der fer u. . i will try to b there fer u k hubby. . soon next year we shall have someone new in our life. . lets shower *newbie* with love,care,education n all. . promise me watever it is pls tell me n ask me before u do n make decision. ..

hmm at last i finish my med n surgical posting skills. . i left w mother n child. . cant wait to go there. . hmm today was abit slow. . n quite bz. . till wen i going back home there's an outsider come to me. . missy y ur face so pale. . i was like shoots. . ya den i go n put make up den off home. .n ya thanks charlynne n farhah for always there to help out. . we really work as a team. . 2 more weeks to end. . i really start to miss everyone. .i wonder if we can mit again. . really gonna miss ya. . hope we can kip in touch ferver. .

ps** if u tink tt i will entertain dos ppl who ask to make fren tru sms u r wrong k n dun waste other ppl msg jus to msg me n ask if can make fren.i dun entertain all tt. .
-*- signing off-*-

2008-11-25T18:00:00.002+08:00

i really cant take dis fer two days we have not been toking. . its weird. . i admit i miss her. .but it jus not her wen she did tt type of attitude. . der comes the 3rd party whom bloody hell provoke our fucking r'ship. . cmon on lah woman. . firstly u n me is not in the same cp group n how the fuck u noe my day in attachment. . if u r from my cp n say tt to me by all means k.u r not my group so u bloody hell dont noe how i am with my group. . so dont tok much. . n u the one who got attitude problem so dont blame others i've been tolreating u to the extend ok. . seriously ppl mouth just can shutzzz!!!!!!

2008-11-20T16:58:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow is yu jun's bday so ya gf this is fer u. .

Happy Birthday to my love Lin Yu Jun. . the best gal fren i ever had. . U r irritating,funny,always der fer ppl, n helpful. . n loves to talk!!! Happy birthday girl!! Wish u succeed in life and strive hard fer ur aim in life. . wish u many many luck n happy always with ur loves one. . smile always!!! sorry fer taking ur pixx. . take care. . the reason fer me putting prple colour font is bcos i noe u like's purple

2008-11-20T16:47:00.003+08:00

heyy today John Dalton and Jessie Swallow last day in the ward. . so got take few pixxx. . hehe. . they r nice and friendly people. . hmmm. . o ya today i really got no appetite to eat in the morg so i ate at 12. . hmm was hungry by then nyehehe. .seriously im tired n like gonna sleep soon. . niiittesss

2008-11-17T23:21:00.007+08:00

heheyy. . today its like suppose to go fer cp then send my dear to airport since going Thailand today.. . but it end up to be. . me sleeping the whole day in the room. . totally knocked off. . maybe im too tired or maybe it jus due to d damn tonsil tt i got fever again. .idiot mann. . anyway lets start with

Saturday 15 November 2008

ok sat as usual got replacement damn alone summore. . ok team 3 got no pt except fer like 3 pt.wich one goin home so left 2 tt not much to do. .so i help out kak marjida w sponging in team 1 n 3.team 2 nuting much to do as 1 cubicle is empty the another one got 3 also and 2 goin back.so nuting much to do. . no hourly also. . so i go team 1 to help out..den during breakfast there's no hca so we do.. we serve all den update i/o. so aftr breakfast n i/o i go fer my break ALONE!! eating alone.god damn it so bored.so i text norsiah. ok after break i really got nuting to do n wen to hi-d. n help out.at least der got hourly got this pakcik to entertain since he demented but i tell u he damn smart. whoa.he can tell me the meaning of dementia.so since his oral is quite bad i did oral toilet. nyehehe. . feel happy after doin so.he is much cleaner den as in the mouth. den at 12.30 off to break with kak marjida n the hi-d staff.so i saw parveen this b class guy,fareez n fid.aftr break i did hypo count n off plug fer pt goin back.so after all tt help at hi-d.do hourly. update i/o fer hi-d,team 2 n 3. . den i like b an en fer a day la.off hourly n i/o fer pt goin hm.put their chart at the front. make the cubicle neat. .then at 2.50.kak yati ask me to go home i called teacher and tell her but she say to wait up fer the next few min.ok den wait den at 3 off i go rush to TM.change money den go religious class.den at nite watch soccer at arnd 1 off to jb.reach home back at arnd 4.50.sleep den wake up at 8am so now is the

Sunday 16th November 2008

ok i go bath get my cloths ready off to nani place w/o my make up n hair.not forgetting raqeef he is all prepared.ok go nani house i help the kids to make up fer them get nabilah's scarf. .den put on make up fer my self use scarf den all of us go fadhili marriage.tell u his biker member whoa damn very supporting.i saw an.tok to him.den i help out at the kitchen.feed raqeef den let him go playground.den after helping im tired n i sit at the playgrnd o ya not forgetting my shoe broke.gosh o ya thanks to mamu SAM he send me back.so yeah.ok den after helping out i sit at the playground i saw him toking to cuzzie den sddenly he is like toking to a gal.i was trying hard to ignore.so i tok to arman.chat with him n stuff.gas watt azman is married. .nyehehe.ok back to arman he insyallah getting married next year 7th august.how i wish is 2nd august.hehe i ask him y not 2nd august jyeah den he say ur birthday ryt haha.i want to get married on the 2nd august. .haha.ok den half way Arman dance.he ask me n mumtaz hmm do u go clubbing n seriously i was like argh. . no. . haha. . so he said k Gd can at least dance later w him at the dance floor.gosh!!he sending us to cemetery or watt.my family gonna kill me.den after the marriage as usual the groom parent will kena sabotage by the family member.n also the groom mother siblings and all so ya every one kena. .hehe. . lucky me and some others didnt.mamu nazim pour abit hot water to mami kia.funny mann.rally enjoy ytd wedding.hehe. . k lah. .signing off chiox..

2008-11-13T21:55:00.003+08:00

heyyy. . today D class wen back to sch. . argh!!!meet my bitches and all. . so happy. . update cca and cip . .den go to the blood donation tingy. . half way tru the process fina told me tt i cant go cos i'll be goin for my operation. . and more blood will be like losing. . argh!!! wat the hell. . fina argh!! so mira,nana,lisa and karthik and meishi go. . confirm kan go . . but nana face like pale. . she seens to b sick from the time i tego her n ya she still donating. .hmph. . maybe she's better now. . i don noe. . but after all she used to b my bestie. . hmph. . perhaps now i do regards her as my bestie but i don noe we jus don tok. . i try but she seems to pulling herself away. . dunno largh. . hmmm oga oga change topic. . so after sch go fina hse. . slack der den at 6 mum fetch me. . off to sheng siong d first ting tt rings on my brain is like RIBENA!! so grab tt first. . nyehehe. . ook after SS. .called abg din. . he say a'kum den he shouted tt idiot name. . woah i tell u. . i really feel like killing abg din. . ok so i ask him actually mum ask him abt wawan. .so he say got postponed. den 3rd december his parents need to come down n sign sumtg. . den papa say it mayb tagging or watever. . dun bother. . so ya. .
so wen i balik. . mandi den eat. . o ya medicine. . byebye. . need to take medicine. . come back again

she's gone--he sang it to me now i got addicted

2008-11-12T12:31:00.000+08:00

She's gone,
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.

In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus)

Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Lady, oh, lady.

She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.

Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus x2)

Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.

my operation is like on 28 nov

2008-11-11T21:21:00.002+08:00

heyyy deary diary. . hmm lets start frm the time i wake up. . hmmm i straight go poly take medicine den otw back home faizah call me. . gas wat she overdose of panandol. . reason y cause she jus broke up. . like wat the hell kan!!! better still jump down . .i advice her n all. . telling her tt she d one hu feel the pain and out der the ex-bf having fun. . dumb sia. . i seriously find gals hurting themselves wen broke off w bf is stupid. . seriously!!! anw send her to AH A&E. . den saw kuhan. . haha long tym nvr meet him sia. . den saw sch mate and mdm suriati she ask y im there and all. . so i tell her. . gas wat she say the same thing like wat i say to faizah. . abt u the one hu hurts and ur bf out der having fun. . dumbo lah. . denn at 4 i wen to G clinic fer my appt. . so latest update my operation is like on 28 nov. .so i sms mdm qian. . she say she inform section head then will update me more abt it. . i will like only a day surgery so i'll b fine. . most probably. . hehe. . hmph so after all the appt go to ward 5 to sit with faizah and all then at 8 i leave im too tired to stay der. .ouh gosh. .

i love my new skin

2008-11-09T00:43:00.002+08:00

at last my skin as in blog skin changes. . o ya thx faj fer all the hard works. . appreciate it much . . i have some lil secret w faj. . haha make sure its between us i warn u mann. . hehe k lah gonna sleep. .

love
love
love

woah at last

2008-11-08T23:48:00.003+08:00

woah i tell u thank god its the last day at ward 44. . the sen argh. . MF mann. . menyusah kan org. . damn argh she's like spoiling our mood at the end of our peaceful day largh. . dumbo. .anw today like not bad working w norsiah den it team 3 like empty haha. . fer the first time largh . .super relax. . haixx. . today after work i go out w fina. . hm haha. . fun . .finding fer hair extension like wat the hell. .hehe. . my body damn pain la i tell u. . mama say salah bantal . in english is the pillow mistake. . wat hell tah lah. . hehe tink gonna rest now. . bye bye. .

2008-11-08T23:42:00.003+08:00

heyyy!!! i some how mis my laptop. . hehe. . hmmm ytd was a day. . slack with wawan,mama,papa and this uncle i dunno hu. .we slack like till 1am. we like discussing abt celebrating wawan's bday. .hmm not bad huh. . hmm and yar den kak nadia came over she's abg din gf. . hmmm speaking of abg din gues watt the fish die :'( sad ika!!! gosh. . jus cant believe it. . damn d bloody o2. . imagine if all my pt had dat 02. . choi choi nehh dont say it mann. . anw working w haikhal and farhah is super funn largh. . gosh everytime cracking jokes like f sia. . hmm o ya received an email from ttsh calling fer interview. i confused if i shld go anot. . cos i starting to love and wants to work at cgh. . hmmm. . wonder how. . ttsh is not bad. . haha. . scrub suits. . lol ika work fer the bloody shirt like wat the hell. . hmm 11 december need to go back to sch had a talk w ms gwee. . den 17 dec is like prom nite. . haha. .i "dowan" to go. .hehe. . well depends on the bitches largh if they go den i might be goin. . hmm sch gonna end soon. . and i bloody hell next year need to work den fook out my own money. .
my dear rashika you are no longer daddy's or mummy's child. . you need to stand by ur own. . hey shld depend on u. .plus day by day parents getting older.. i am their only hope. . plus raqeef there's alot to go through. . he also need a life. . he need to go sch,religous class and all. . hope so insyallah i can make it through. . i will suppor my parents as much as i could effort. . haixa. .
gonna sleep soon. . nitezzz ppll

my edition

2008-11-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

jus one thing

2008-11-04T22:20:00.001+08:00

its a shit day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im soo in love

2008-11-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

im soo in love w the song camelia by irwanshah. .gosh. . how bad tt guy is. . the song really touches my heart. . go listen ppl!!! hmm im bored. .
*shutz*

2008-11-01T11:52:00.000+08:00

wah ytd was like super funny. . me and hical keep on laughing cant stop. . den dis charlynne cracking soo many jokes. . quite funny though. . o ya den got this cleaner gave me and basirah soo many sweets. .i gave basirah abit den i give the police officer some too. . hehe. . ytd was quite fun. .n ya its saturday!!!! i cant wait fer later ugama. . lol. . hmmm im coming right up. . hehe. .dumbo. . ytd i tok to shaheerah and ya i told her everyting abt my feeling toward tt guy she herself say everyone can change. . well will c. . gtg. . byebye

lim pei kali kong

2008-10-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

wah i tell u. . the person really pissing my few moments of day in the ward. . tell eu. . he go lepak at mortuary pun cantik. . irittating jinx!!! o my today like 1st noon. . time goes quite fast. . hmm. .went back home with my 2 bitch aira and mila. . hmmm tok and tok den take train off back home. . n ya. . i dont know wat wrong me but im jus too tired o ya. . today im abit down but no soo down something unexpected was seen!!! ouich!!! hurts mann!!! :''(

back home

2008-10-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

I'm back home!!!! happy sei. . few days at tamp was fun for me and raqeef. .thou im tired after attachment i do take some tym to be with him. . hehe. . my dear boy anyhow figure it out how to go games on my laptop and play games i dont mind if he play the kids game but wen i look he was like playing cards. . i shout out. . i was like gosh!!! wtf!!! and he cn really play it thou he click anyhow. . kids these days. .

back to work. .so far ward 44 is fun. .i like it. .working w haiqal is fun but irritating. . haha but fun..

i feel so relieve back home. .

imm to confused

2008-10-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

i dont noe y. .but wen i go over to tamp i started to miss him. . thinking of him.where is he. . and all. . ytd wen i was like slacking w them he was like looking. .i wonder is he serious abt wat he say tt he likes me. . its like the whole village noes abt he liking me. . seriously!!! i wonder if wat he say is the truth?? but after sometimes. . i do start to think of himm. . missing hym and all stuff. . seriously!! its hard fer me to say. . he making me confused!! but i dont mean to criticise its just tt. .i dunno hard to tell. .the song tt was create was it meant fer me!!! o allah help me...

27 october 2008

2008-10-27T13:49:00.000+08:00

hmmp today while me gonna update my blog i read my tagg. . human being: ouh gosh u r 19 and u got son?? wtf man..wats wrong with all the youngsters nw a days..try to produce 1st den get married!! haha..
say watevar u wanna say. . i noe wat i am doing. .jus remember not everyone has a perfect family.. i wonder who is this human being. . hmph!!!

26 0ct0ber 2008

2008-10-27T13:38:00.000+08:00

today we i wake up the first thing raqeefs says to me. . today nani balik hehe. . he is soo happy. .yar evryone miss mum. .so i went to cook. . after cooking make raqeef eat. .since he has been bugging me to on the laptop fer him i did that let him play fer 30min den send him off to sleep. . so arnd 6. we go and fetch mama. . while waiting i get burger king fer him and me. . wen mum's reach the first thing is she hug raqeef den me. so is look at all the pix that was taken and gas wat my sis son is super fair lorgh. . like raqeef wen he was just deliver. . hehe. .the baby look the same like raqeef except raqeef got this indian looking bitss

26 0ct0ber 2008

2008-10-27T13:36:00.000+08:00

happy birthday atuk. . i love you soo much. .u r everything for me. . appreciate all the advice and all the doings that u've done fer me. . hearts u atuk

25 october 2008

2008-10-27T13:31:00.000+08:00

its a saturday!!!! hmph. . today like a normal life at mami's house got religious class so i ask my small cousin to bring raqeef go over first den i come over. . in the religious class raqeef's fall asleep.poor baby so i put him in nani's room and he doze off. . right timing after religious class he wake up. . the class was fun. . i really understand wat the ustadz was trying to say. . i really feel approach to go for it. . after all its our family religious class. . more to go next week huh. . hmmmpphhh. .so no more sat day out till late night. . hehe. .
o ya. . today is usman birthday!! happy birthday cuzin!!

24 october 2008

2008-10-27T13:22:00.000+08:00

hmmm today was a fun. . hsm 3 released and the cinema gosh damn pack . i went with mumtaz,umar,fhir,saira,iqbal,faizah,asif,ima and my son. . he was like soo happy. . he wants cheese cake. . halloween pop corns, nachos and sausage. .he keep on eating and eating. .hehe. . thou the movie was like more to teens still he enjoy. .at first my mom was like nagging saying he wont enjoy it bring him to watch some cartoons. but watever mama he still enjoy. . den after movie we went back home straight. .eat at home bath den sleep hehe. . and oo ya hsm 3 is super nice. . i dont regret watching it. . next on the list---madagascar. .

2008-10-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

wat does rashika's mean

2008-10-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

Rashika are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. Rashika is always up to something.

Rashika have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle her. she is very intense.

Rashika definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But her kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

Rashika are usually the best at everything ...Rashika strive for perfection.

Rashika are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

Rashika have the classic “Type A” personality.

Rashika are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

Rashika have the whole world under het spell, and you can influence almost everyone she knows.

Rashika don't always resist her urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as she do.

Rashika are truly an original person.Rashika have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for Rashika... especially in business and academia.

Some people find Rashika to be selfish and a bit overbearing. Rashika is a strong person.

Rashika tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get Rashika excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

Rashika have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. Rashika don't stick with any one thing for very long.

Rashika have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. her biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

Rashika are a seeker of knowledge, and Rashika have learned many things in her life.

Rashika are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning Rashika don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think she is snobby or aloof, but she is just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

miss my dear

2008-10-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

heyy baby. . im soo sorry i dun really spend my tymm with u. . been busy with attachment. . i swear tmr or sat we will go out. . n sunday we fetch nanny back home from airport. . i am really tired from attachment n dun hav time to play and teach u. . im sooo sorry dear. . we will soon go out and get ur psp k. . thats my promise my boyy. . i love u soo much.. today yu jun say sje's not wellpity her. .she vomit and got diarhoea today also i vomit two times den yaya fainted. .muyas and shikin diarhoea and vomit. . wats goin on mann. . hmm my throat is killing me mann. . i really cant take it anymore. .

i wanna change my nick

2008-10-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

wat the hell!!! while doing my case study this yu jun ask me if i noe tis gal frm A class. .she read her blog and at the tag got a gal name ika. .so the coincident. but that gal was like criticizing kak jamilah dunno in joking manner or wat. . this yu jun was shock and ask me. . hmmm i wanna change my nick. . ikah?? lol. . wat the hell . .hmm hmmm. . today abit bz. . do case study. . there goes the same irritating person vrooming on the bike. . noisy la ehk!!!! mis mama. . seriously. . haizzzzz. . come back soon dear mama. . ika loves u. . ikah i mean. . haha

my baby gone. . :''(

2008-10-21T22:22:00.001+08:00

. .sad sad. . she wont be in spore fer 2 weeks. . i miss her. . very much. . she went to overseas got work. . miss u dear. . no one to talk to fer 2 weeks. . gosh . . work was ok today quite fun. . relaxingg. . bbutt tired fer the journey. . haixxxx wat e hell. . its ok 3 more days to go. . tmr is charlyne's birthday. . happy bday gal .. i dunno y i wan this post to b big. . lol. .im tired tmw mrg shift. . :"(

one word. . tired

2008-10-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

im just too tired to update stuff. . haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. . .
gonna go sleepp tata ppl. . im hungry. . suddenly. . and my teeth bits by bits is coming off. . wat the hell sia.. . bubye la. . tired

miss those moment

2008-10-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

sleep study ehk???

2008-10-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

sleep study was like soo uncomfortable. . its like. . ECG, spo2 and nasal prong on me. . cant believe it. . now i understand how the pt feel.. alone in the room was like super wat the hell and come to the food sucks sia!!!! no taste. . nothing. . eew!!!!! its really an experience to b a pt. . wen i got to discharge the first ting is bath, get ready and bye bye. . LOL. . anw jus now got this penjumpaan hari raye. . it was fun. . enjoying. . and i saw Didi he is like budak kompang. . he argh dunno how to smile sia during performance like wat the hell. . i was shock to see him. . but ya. .the whole thing was like great la after all. . only the Indian dance nonsense. . and dey are from ite simei. . the group tt got 2nd last or last for dance arena. . it was like the same costume and songs and dance. . hmm no changes boring. . haha. . haizzz im tired bye bye

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2008-10-18T08:56:00.000+08:00

♥ at last im back home ♥
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TRUST ME!!!! I AINT THE OLD RASHIKA

2008-10-16T00:48:00.000+08:00

heyyy just now slack w ppls. . they are fun.. loves to crack joke. . friendly and all. . hmm today i on mc. . gosh haf to replace. . anw i jus cant believe watever i have heard. . and ya i've move on. . i no longer remember him . .wats past is past. . y cant ppl trust me?? funn---neehhhh. . watever la my own best fren also dont believe me. . i was just asking. . thats all. . wats wrong in asking. . bosan argh!!! come on la i noe myself i noe i use to love him soo much. . but things change. . whatever situation he is in i dont care. . as a fren i as jus asking. . but i ain't gonna bother anymore abt him. . seriously wat past is past. . both are leading a happy life. . and i dont wan bcos of this me and my best fren fight. .it is like soo nonsense. . i jus cant believe it. . watever happen today really stunt me. . I HAVE MOVED ON!!!! I NO LONGER LOVE HIM!!! AND I ALREADY FORGET ABT HIM!!!! PLEASE PEOPLE TRUST ME!! IM NOT THE OLD RASHIKA!!!! PLEASE TRUST ME

My First Name Tells A lot About Who I Am"

2008-10-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

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R: You love to kiss
A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have
S: You are freakin crazy
H: You have a very good personality and good looks
I : People love you
K : You're wild and crazy
A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have
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A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have
B: You love a certain someone
C: People cant help but check u out
D: You are really lovable
E: You Are Great in bed
F: Easy to fall in love with
G: You never let people tell you what to do
H: You have a very good personality and good looks
I : People love you
J : People Adore you
K : You're wild and crazy
L: AWESOME KISSER
M: Beautiful
N : Easy to fall in love with
O : Best kisser ever
P : You are popular with all types of people
Q : You are a hypocrite
R: You love to kiss
S: You are freakin crazy
T: You are loyal to the ones you love
U: You really like to chill
V : your not judgmental
W: You are popular
X: You never let people tell you
Y: Sexiest bitch/hunk alive
Z: Never good enough